Some hope. I'm gonna share a very private and intimate message with all of you.
My wife is largely apolitical and her red pill pretty much consisted of just believing that orange man isn't that bad. After the november election I started digging for the truth, discovered Q, took the red pill, discovered pizza gate.
My wife isn't very religious, but she is very spiritual with a strong sixth sense, if that makes sense.
I walked away from God a decade ago. Discovering how deep evil truly goes sent me back to him. I haven't told my wife much, just little bits here and there. However she's seen me reading the Bible at night, she's seen me praying and she's seen me crying as I pray for the kids. All I've told her about it is that the truth scared the living day lights out of me and it's worse than she can imagine.
Today she sent me this message (I would screenshot it, but it's in Afrikaans, our native language) "I'm really glad that there are people, who like you, question things and start waking up. It's brought a very positive change in you in general, in our relationship and in our lives. I know you discovered horrifying things and it haunts you, but it really feels to me as if a light has entered your life and our relationship. The best way I can describe it is if someone opened a door oor a window to let light in. I'm so grateful and privaleged to know you are willing to wade through so much horrible info and absorb it cause you want to find the truth. I love you and I couldn't ask for a better husband."
My point being, I dunno your circumstances, or what has transpired in your life. But let the awakening draw you closer to God and let that light change the people around you. Sometimes you can't hit people over the head with the red pill, sometimes your life has to be the red pill.
Blessings and love, frens
WWG1WGA
Stay COURAGEOUS.. You're doing it right!