I have been awake for 10 years but after discovering Q I feel like I have grown spiritually and just detached from mainstream society. Q is just different then what I knew in the past. The magnitude of our situation has made me just realize how superficial and fake mainstream society and culture is.
I used to be a big football fan. College and pro. I couldn't give less of a fuck about it now. I don't care about any sportsball now. Occasionally I'll watch some UFC and that's it.
Used to browse social media. Haven't been on Facebook for months now. Barley ever on Instagram. I used to post on snapchat a lot. Don't at all anymore. I still snap my actual friends but I don't look at stories or anything.
I used to be kind of a "chad" I hate using that term cause it makes me sound like a douche but I don't care about casual sex at all anymore. Have had opportunities to get laid I just don't care. It's just meaningless.
I don't even care about dating anymore. I have tried but trying to be in their fake world is impossible. Knowing what I know now it's like I am from another planet. This is truly a war for people's minds and souls. They talk about a new movie or show and I have no idea what they are talking about nor do I care. I don't know anything about new music either. Most of it is garbage and for the simple minded.
Not to sound like an arrogant asshole but it seems like many of us have outgrown normies and mainstream society. I feel like Neo in the Matrix every day trying to blend in with people who are human but in a completely different reality then me. I don't relate to them anymore and I only care about things that have a deeper meaning nowadays. Sometimes I have wondered if I am insane from all of this.
I just in many ways feel like a completely different person then I was before Q.
There's a story in the Talmud about Rabbi Shimon bar Yochai. You might find it of interest.
Rabbi Shimon was caught speaking poorly of the Romans. The local governor sentenced him to die. He fled with his son and hid in a cave for 12 years. During that time, they drank water from a spring, ate fruit from a tree, and studied Torah the rest of the time.
After 12 years, Elijah the Prophet came by the cave, saying: "Who will tell Rabbi Shimon that the Roman governor who ordered his death has himself perished, and the decree has been cancelled?"
Knowing the Romans would no longer kill him, Rabbi Shimon and his son left the cave. But after 12 years of doing nothing but study Torah, holiness and G-d, Shimon and his son no longer understood the ordinary people around him.
He saw a field of wheat. And flew into a rage. "Why are people wasting their time planting wheat instead of studying the way of G-d?" His power of Torah was so great at this time that the field caught fire from his words alone.
A voice came from the heavens. "Shimon, have you come out of your cave just to destroy my world? Back to the cave with you!"
Realizing they were not fit to live with ordinary people, Shimon and his son returned to the cave for another year. After which, Shimon said to his son: "It doesn't matter if the rest of the world has gone off. You and I will be enough to keep the holiness alive."
On their way back to civilization, they met a man carrying flowers and wheat. Conversing with them, the man said he worked at the farm to grow the wheat, and he sold some to get flowers to celebrate the Sabbath, which was coming soon. Seeing some of the common people worked to still observe the Sabbath at the end of the week gave Shimon a measure of peace.
You might be feeling a bit like Rabbi Shimon and his son emerging from the cave, empowered with new knowledge of the true nature of reality, but losing some of the ability to relate to the ordinary people. But that too is a necessary skill.