I found out from a friend's post that Kyle is not guilty, said friend couldn't understand how he was not guilty when he killed two people. I tried to explain to him but he ended up blocking me (this was all on FB don't crucify me it's how I stay in contact with a lot of people who are far away). I am pretty upset about this because he has helped me out a lot with guidance when I have been in bad spots mentally.
I think my BPD (borderline personality disorder) is effecting my judgement on this because I truly feel that it's my fault. I feel that I am a bad person for being overly opinionated and I should just stay quiet. I feel like I am losing more and more friends every day as well. This one hit harder than most and just makes me want to change who I am as a person.
I like your view on this, and maybe you are right. I am more mentally stable than when I had depended on him a great deal in the past. It still hurts a lot though 😞
I've gone through similar things. Live in a pretty blue state and very blue city. It's just not possible to not have friends and family with different beliefs. My husband and I were disinvited to Christenings for my nieces' children because we are not vaxxed. I am blowing off a lunch with colleagues that I have seen at Christmastime every year for nearly 25 years because I just can't listen to it. Three people we know from the same firm died post double jab in 120 day span from heart attack, blood clot, heart attack. 2 late 50's one 61 year old. And they will still be giving me shit about not being vaccinated. No can do.
Hang in there, this too shall pass.