I'm asking for as many prayers as I can.
I've fought all I could, but in the end I think my mother was tired of fighting all the pain in her life. She has had so many surgeries in her life maim her more than when she went in.
18+ times under the knife; everything from both knee replacements, spinal fusions, gastric bypass...
She didn't have great odds going into this, and even though I did everything I could think to try and help her, she didn't have the fight after decades of the medical system botching every single procedure. She wouldn't even do breathing exercises for months leading up to this even after I begged her to so she had the best chances.
They wore her down for years, and killed any fight left in her.
They are so evil, and have been for along time...
I don't fear death, not for me or for loved ones. I just can't shake the idea of how she might be taken from us -- that intentional malpractice, milking her for every penny and stringing us along for a few weeks before killing her off on the ventilator is how she is going to die.
I had to do all I could for my brother and father who also got sick. They are well now, but it meant I couldn't care for my mother, even if they would have let me into the room. My father is still recovering, so he couldn't be there to make all the legal/medical decisions. I couldn't convince him to stop the remdesivir or the ventilator, and even if I could we just didn't have the time or energy to fight for it.
I've been praying for a miracle, a big turn, but unless HER heart is in it I don't think God will answer my prayer. That's fair enough, I guess, as it's ultimately not my decision to make.
A few months back she told me she couldn't see Christmas this year. Maybe all this is a self-fulfilling prophecy, I don't know...
If anyone you know gets sick with it, make sure they never stop moving, drinking, or eating. All the ivermectin, HCQ, and Z-packs in the world won't save them if they don't want to save their self.
I'm praying for the best outcome, however. I've not given up on her, but I'm preparing for the worst.
Anyways, please pray for her. I believe in Miracles, and I'm not gonna stop praying yet. Thanks for listening.