Remember that they have been engineering bugs for decades, and there was a video circulating in 2005 of a conference where they were talking about affecting the religious part of the brain with a vaccine, to counter 'extremism'.

I became suspicious in the early 2000s that the bugs going round were not normal anymore. They happened in summer, for example. Also, I had a similar effect as you, after catching swine flu (2009-ish). I felt stripped from my constant light companion that I knew to be Jesus, even though the flu was mild. Very disconcerting. It took years.

The covid made me have vertigo if I got out of bed. I had to hold onto the walls to go to the bathroom: again the bug was mild, but the after effects were worrying. That took a while to work through. Still get odd days of nerves buzzing in my legs, 18 months later. But the praying ability has remained with me this time.

Keep trying, The ability to connect will come back and it will be invincible.

BTW. There is no way that they will convince me to take part in the bioweapon experiment.