I was driving home from a grocery run and this kid no more than 4 years old caught my eye at a stop sign. He was staring at me and as I looked over at him, he smiled and waved. I smiled and waived back and he was so happy he got someone to wave back at him. I assume it was some game he was playing to see who would wave. I gave him a little honk-honk and left.
I don't know what the fuck happened to me but I got really emotional. All I could picture was a kid that probably looks exactly like him somewhere in a bunker having God knows what done to him.
I have had a very hard time sleeping over the past 5 years just thinking about the horrors. It comes at me time to time.
This particular moment hit me like a fucking brick. I went silent after and my wife noticed it. Obviously, I didn't say anything to her about what I was really thinking but man, that kids face is tattooed into my brain now.
Bless you fren ! You’re not alone! The information we know is heavy, it can weigh on our hearts and minds ! Some people find this site as a good release, and it is… but Jesus is who I cast my burden on and turn to daily because it’s just too much sometimes! I take my unpleasant, horrible, saddening thoughts and give it up to Him. It’s been a rough but hopeful road ! God will win !