I am burnt out both from this and my professional life at the moment. I have been awake for a long time and since I was 17 years old. Ron Paul started my awakening process.
Anyways I am worn out from feeling like my life is on hold from all of this (feeling like there is little point in making goals if the economy is going to tank super hard). My dream has always been to open a business with my Dad but with inflation and the dollar tanking it just seems like a bad idea at the moment. I am also tired of the grifters and what not saying they have information then being full of shit aka the “two more weeks” meme. I normally don’t listen to them but even some people like Don JR have done this.
Also I want to work on my anger and resentment towards normies. How do some of you over come this? My problem is that I have no perspective of what it’s like to be asleep as I have been awake my whole adult life. I also live in the Seattle/King County area and see triple vaxxed people walking around the dog park by themselves with a mask on. LA, SF, NYC, Portland, Toronto etc. frens know what I am talking about. My main frustration with normies is I truly don’t get how they don’t think something is wrong? Like to me it’s so obvious so if someone on here who woke up later in life could give me som perspective that would be great.
I have called leftists orcs, servants of darkness etc. and I would like to be more like Christ and learn how to pray for my enemies and not let my anger over take me.
Also holding the line in the Seattle area took a psychological toll on me. Not being able to go to the gym, go out with friends and watching my family and friends get picked off one by one by vax mandates/peer pressure was hard. Like many of you I lost family cause of my vax stance. Only my brother and I held the line. So I also worry I am going to lose someone close due to something vax related. And if the worst theories are true he’s the only one I will have left.
Anyways in the meantime I am going to take a period of sobriety, focus on my health, my bible and take a break from GAW and X22 unless something major actually happens. Dave and people on here keep saying people are waking up but I don’t see it at all. I just see normies blowing wherever the wind blows. So I just get worn out from being told people are waking up but not actually seeing it.
Also thinking I need to get away from Seattle leftists and the cold weather so I am planning to book a trip to Florida. So if Florida frens could tell me some cool places to go that aren’t swamped by tourists or leftists that would be great. I know I just said I am going to take a period of sobriety but the only thing I want to do right now is drink a Margarita on a warm beach, listen to the ocean and feel the warmth of the sun.
I also welcome any general advice on how to deal with burnt out. Thank you.
You said “Also I want to work on my anger and resentment towards normies. How do some of you over come this?”
Just reading your post again and thinking about some things.. it’s great you’re coming up Florida. Seems like you’ve reached max capacity for BS up there. When you mentioned not being able to go to the gym- that actually is a critical thing. I remember during the initial covid lockdowns emailing Gov DeSantis almost every day about the gyms and the need for them to open back up. I begged and pleaded, gave examples how vital it was for many, including veterans who relied on them for mental and physical health. I joked how I was probably on a watch list for writing him so often. I knew his inbox was prolly full and he never even read them. Anyway, I know how important it is and I can’t even believe you still can’t go. It isn’t the same working out at home. If it’s part of your life, the ritual of going is as important as the actual exercise. Anyway, I can see how this has taken a toll on you.
Come to Florida. Consider making a change.
The other thing I can suggest regarding handling anger and resentment is.. and I’ve seen some shiz.... focus on others. Focus on making someone else’s life better. Even just little things. Yep, take care of you and your home/fam and job but you may want to focus on doing something positive for others if you don’t already. Even just making something, fixing something, reaching out to see if a neighbor needs a hand, whatever you can squeeze in. That’s what I do. I have a lot of therapy-requiring-level anger and resentment from military and it does help to focus on others. Veterans groups need volunteers. Well, basically all the various groups need help. Donating stuff, creating things (I know a guy who does wood working and donates toys and cutting boards and such.) Meals on wheels, etc so even if you don’t especially like people, there are still ways to give. That’s one way.
Another thing is having solitude, meditating and listening to and playing music helps me. I’ve gotten into classical which is a journey in itself. It will sooth as well as entertain your mind. Of course praying is important, but I think part of that is working on your own personal plan for peace. Working on having solitude, emptying your mind and also listening to your own voice helps with prayer. I remember my uncle, a priest saying he often meditated. As a kid, I thought that was weird because it was my impression priests and religious folk just prayed. I was incorrect. Anyway, lots of tips on YouTube or wherever for methods.
This is long.. sorry. I’ll end it with this. You’re far stronger than you realize. You’ll get through this.
I can go to the gym now that the vax passport is gone but for awhile I couldn’t. Thanks for the advice.