Because of all the things that I learn here, separates me from the ones that i love and try to protect… they are so caught up in this crap that I cannot get through.. they all think I am crazy and stupid for not going the way that everyone else is going… I think they are crazy, at the same time for not listing to a voice of reason from a man that loves them and has been there for them forever…these times are trying me to the core of my being.. I still push forward and will never stop.. but damn this is some really hard stuff we are dealing with!