We are ALL sinners! So know you get no condemnation from me! I understand how the urges to do your "pet" sin can be very strong. Jesus can change how you feel about this, and he LOVES you, so you know he wants you to overcome. I would suggest the following:

1. Fully repent for the sins you have done. Give your life to Christ, fully submitting your will to Him, say it out loud. Confess every sin you can think of to him. Ask Holy Spirit to reveal anything you missed. Recognize that his blood shed on the cross for you has the power to clean you completely and ask him to do so. If you feel yourself holding back, ("I am willing to do whatever you want, except I really don't want to stop ___ or fear I won't be able to") then say you are willing to be willing, and ask him to change your desires.
   Thank him for saving you.

2. Find a Bible-believing church in your area, or contact Gateway Church if you don't have one, and tell them you are newly saved, and you need to be baptized, so get that scheduled. Also, you want to get into the freedom ministry program, becausethey can provide more resources than what I can give you here. Possibly, you may need demonic deliverance to get the total healing you need. It may be you need some spiritual counseling to help you go back to your place of being wounded and let Jesus deal with these hurts. (The person close to me who struggled with this had been bullied and it was a defense mechanism; they are no longer gay.) You have to let Holy Spirit lead you in this.

3. Start reading the Bible every day to feed your spirit and transform your mind. I suggest the free YouVersion Bible app. Choose a reading plan. It is super easy to keep track of where you are and catch up if you skip a day.

I'm using the Bible App by YouVersion.com. Download it now for your mobile device. https://j794q.app.goo.gl/DQUw3heGxca94dw39

4. Now, as soon as you do this, the enemy, especially foul spirits, will try to shame you, convince you it wasn't real, tempt you again or other attacks. If you fail and sin again, run to Jesus immediately. He already knows anyway and he will forgive you again, and then you can tell the devil, (your accuser, and The Forever Loser) to get lost!

It will be critically important to get into a supportive community where you can be honest, but also find accountability partners who will pray with you.

Look up verses, or let's invite our frens to share their favorite verses they memorize to battle with. When you quote scripture back to the devil he will flee from you!

I pray right now for you, that Jesus send you war angels to help deliver and protect you. I pray Holy Spirit free you and help you learn your true authority in Christ and use you to win many souls for God's kingdom. I pray God's favor and grace be upon you.

Amen. ❤