sometimes life delivers a reason to change. For me, it was finally my husband. He started having health problems in September that turned out to be mini strokes. It was me having to stay up during the night to watch out for him and then most of the day too. It became the focal point of my existence. Watch out for him. Take care of him. Be sober, alert, and ready if he needs to go to the hospital. New years eve we had our last drink together. A shot each. And now he can't drink, because he's had 8 full blown strokes since April 3, and I won't, because his life is too precious to me to miss out on with even one moment of inattentiveness. He turned me on to Q in the beginning and we have ridden this ride all the way till now. Now he can't read GAW anymore. His strokes stripped him of a lot, one of them is communication and reading. So now I stay on here, lurk most of the day, read to him, talk to him about the movement, try to make him remember. I told him about the new q posts the other night, and just for a moment a spark of joy came over his eyes. Even in the middle of these strokes that have destroyed his mind and make him fight for his life every single minute, he can delight in the ideas of all this here on GAW. I am thankful for this place. And end of rant, it's another reason I don't need to drink anymore. Life is far too special and big and important to throw away on something like vodka. God bless you. I pray you stay sober too.