To all my friends out there who know what’s really going on… To all my conspiracy theorist friends…
Yes, sometimes it’s a curse and not always a blessing to be awake.
Awakening is the most liberating, alienating, excruciating, empowering, lonely, confusing, freeing, frightening, expansive journey.
If you find yourself struggling as you try to process all this insanity, you are not alone.
No one talks about the darkness that accompanies awakening, or the GRIEF. Not only grieving the life and illusions you once had but the realization that almost everything you thought you once knew, is a LIE.
The beliefs you’ve held, people you’ve trusted, principles you were taught- ALL LIES. Shattering illusions is RARELY an enjoyable experience.
There is a considerable amount of discomfort that comes with growth and the grieving process doesn’t stop there.
With these newfound realizations, you then find yourself grieving all over again. Grieving the loss of many relationships with people who just don’t “get it”. Feeling alone; being ridiculed and shamed, not only by the masses but for many of you, your very own family and friends too. Feeling like you no longer have much in common with the people you are surrounded by.
Struggling with carrying on bullshit, shallow conversations that lack substance with those who are still fast asleep.
Even feeling disconnected from your entire support system because they can’t see what you see.
Some even grieve the loss of their ignorance- because “ignorance is bliss” and reality is harsh.
Awakening can be a lonely road and you will often find yourself journeying alone.
There is no way to sugarcoat it- Awakening to the realities of this world is brutal. It will have you running through the entire gamut of human emotions.
You have to master the art of diving down the darkest of rabbit holes only to come out and still function in daily life, and that’s a skill people don’t talk about enough.
Some of you are struggling with feeling disconnected from family and friends, it’s as though they exist in another world.
Please know you are not alone, and not only are you not alone, you have an entire tribe standing with you.
We may be separated by miles, but we are DEEPLY connected; in purpose and in spirit.
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My anniversary was yesterday and I found out I might not have another one. My wife told me straight up that I was listening to fools and that if I don't stop right away she won't be around for the next one. I am at a loss right now and I don't know what to do. Somebody needs to hurry up or I'm going to lose my wife, my home that we built together and possibly my life. I am at the precipice and have very little time left.
Lord Jesus, I ask your hand of comfort and guidance for this man and that you would remove the veil of blindness and unstop her mind of confusion and let her see what he sees. Please place your hand in their relationship and turn thing around for good and your perfect will. In your Awesome and Almighty name, Amen
Thank You so much.
Of course friend. My husband and I almost didn’t make our 30th anniversary that we just celebrate because for a while I was lead astray and we had alot of seemingly unsolvable differences. I had left for about two weeks planning to file for a divorce. My husband wasn’t willing to let go and took his prayer requests to our pastor and everywhere else imaginable. I’m the one who had become a Christian at age five and he much much later, but I had alot of anger and resentment. Those prayers worked though and God yanked me back into the track I had derailed from. What I’m saying is that God can do anything.
Matthew 19:26 26 But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.