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posted ago by filthycasul ago by filthycasul +112 / -1

for anyone who cares literally at all I have to confess something. I've been struggling massively with addiction for a while now. I'm not exactly comfortable saying what the addiction actually is but I've been trying for months to quit. and every single time I try, I succumb to the temptation. I'm making a mockery of Jesus's sacrifice, and I hate it, and I want nothing more than to be able to overcome my addiction, but I simply don't have the strength. what am I supposed to do? it's really starting to feel hopeless.

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CherokeePede 26 points ago +26 / -0

Start by telling yourself every minute of every day you are strong enough to do it. No one quit by saying they cant. Second, get help. Starting by telling people is a good start. You would not have a struggle if it was not an addiction, it would then be a hobby. None of us are prefect and all of us struggle with one thing or another. And we all need help from time to time.

Keep up with prayer. Trust in God. Have Faith. God will guide you and give you strength if you pray for it and mean it.

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Jfredpillforever 21 points ago +21 / -0

Wow! I am impressed! You came here confessed that you have a problem, you are ashamed that Christ does not like what is happening! Your so close! I will say one little pray for you. God please show this person your power, and show that through you anything can be accomplished, thank you and I believe that you will do this, thank you Jesus

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ApeGang 18 points ago +18 / -0

God already knows your sincerity, relax and let it happen at the right pace for you :)

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SmolPedeBestPede 8 points ago +8 / -0

This is so important to realize. It may not happen this week, this month, or even this year, but it will happen when God decides it will be so. But knowing you want to change and praying for it shows God you’ll be ready when the time is right.

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PowderRoomPolitics 5 points ago +5 / -0

Amen! Accountability is important as well, find a group like Celebrate Recovery, or be accountable to one or two people you can trust on this.

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Factfiler 4 points ago +4 / -0

Great advice. Admitting there is a problem is the first step and seeking help is the second. That second step looks different for each person as they work to gain control over the addiction. But help from others and the accountability they provide is critical to success.

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NOT_ADMIN 12 points ago +12 / -0
  • We are human, the body is weak even if the spirit isn't.
  • figure out what situation you are most tempted. For example, if you tend to sin in private, where you feel it can be in secret, purposefully set out to do things which will prevent such privacy.
  • figure out what your triggers are and find ways to limit those.
  • go to a support group, many are free.
  • go to a counselor, religious ones are often free, only asking for some donation when you can.
  • KNOW THAT GOD LOVES YOU REGARDLESS OF YOUR SIN.
  • we are saved through his grace. The fact that you are trying is a sure sign your aren't lost to him. God knows you. And God loves you. Sometimes you need to just pray like this "Your will be done, I give up my anxieties, my worries, and my control to you. I trust you will all my being." And just do that whenever you have a even the slightest thought of that sin. And breath.
  • remember temptation isn't a sin, even Jesus went through it. If you are tempted, pray, find a Bible and read a page or two. Go into a public area, and stay there untill it passes.
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Lonegunman65 11 points ago +11 / -0

Try Celebrate Recovery. It’s a Christian based recovery approach. Just Google it and you can enter your zip code and it will give you groups closest to your location. Also, get the book “The Heart of Addiction: a Biblical Perspective” by Mark Shaw. It’s available on Amazon. Mark Shaw also has another book called “Relapse: Biblical Prevention Strategies”. I think these three resources are a good start. Good luck in your recovery fren!

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IMAMAN 7 points ago +7 / -0

CR is the BEST. I worked around it for seven years….hundreds of folks overcame their addictions….some reverted. It is great place to let Jesus be your guide.

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17JCsCrib26 2 points ago +2 / -0

Came here to also say this, so I'll give my second on this 🙏

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Unreasonable 8 points ago +8 / -0

Keep praying for it. Do not feel like it's back to square one if you mess up again. If you feel bad afterward and gross then that is God working on you. I can tell it has got you so disgusted that your wrote this post. You haven't before so you have made progress. Your spirit is getting more and more tired of your flesh and is crying out in anger in the form of a GAW post. You have moved forward you have overcome your seeing the battle and recognizing it. Just as God had overcome the Satan yet we still see the pains of the process. Dont confuse your frustration as your loosing ground. Your frustrated because you have already become a better you. Be angry with that flesh. Yeah you might do it again but it tastes less and less appealing each time I know, and you feel more and more frustrated with yourself. But I promise one day it will click and you will feel that peace.

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cyber_acolyte 8 points ago +8 / -0

Pour your heart out to Christ and ask Him to take it away. Repent. If you are struggling to truly repent pray for genuine repentance.

He has done this with many things for me. Open the Bible and ask for guidance when you feel sin trying to overcome you.

You have to mean your repentance. Trust me you will have victory.

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Patriot_Perks 7 points ago +7 / -0

Keep faith. None of us are perfect and Jesus still died for your sins.

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SoundsGood 7 points ago +7 / -0

You are making the biggest step by posting here and reaching out for help. Please never stop fighting against the demons that led you to addiction.

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level2 7 points ago +7 / -0

say the truth, go to a 12-step group saved my life

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TheNewsCommenter 6 points ago +6 / -0

Go to your first AA meeting. They are all over the place. Just search for one nearby. I went to my first a few months ago. You don’t have to talk. You can just say you are there to listen. Super easy. Also, get the blue book. It’s great and reads like a novel. Fascinating stories in there.

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Cyberhawk 6 points ago +6 / -0

Fight. Fight against it. Idle hands do the devils business. And try to get away from the object that giving you access. Like porn for example. I didn’t say break it to pieces. Of course that does work. But try to get away from it. If it’s a pc it’s easier. Usually gaming on such pc does this. Then it’s the phone. Incognito mode...just don’t use it. Fight this evil. Pray to God during those urges. Pray to Jesus for help. Go outside, something different, get on your knees and pray. You know how you feel afterwards. I did. We don’t want to feel that anymore. That failure. Don’t hurt yourself. What makes God happy? Think about this. What makes Satan happy? Your torment. Don’t give him the satisfaction. You’re in a fight. Be the victor. Be amazing. It’s just flesh (I’m assuming here). If you can trust someone enough irl to tell then try. If not then Jesus is right there. Go outside, look at the stars at night. Get away from those images. Turn your head. I’ve stopped playing certain games because it makes me “think”. Personally women are beautiful to me. I see them. And then I know how I should be thinking. I’ve won my battle a year ago. No mistakes in that area in a year. I’m with ya brother. Addiction sucks. But we are better than our addiction. And for what Jesus did for us, there are things worth fighting for. You got this man. 👍❤️🙏

Keep in touch.

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ThePowerOfPrayer 1 point ago +1 / -0

If it's porn, set your default search engine to https://swisscows.com and you won't come across it unless you actively seek it out by switching to another search engine or direct website.

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2020Ray 6 points ago +6 / -0

Every addiction has its own voice. Each is fought seperately. My guess is that it is sexual or porn because you do not want to say. Posting here will probably be of little help but it is a start.. You will need to be honest about what your addiction is and share it with someone. A "sponsor" or even a paid therapist. A parole officer or even a preacher can work. Be accountable to someone. You cannot do it alone and you are not alone. Good luck.

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ImAwakeNow 6 points ago +6 / -0

Start with 12 steps, whatever the addiction is.

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BigDaddy1reboot 5 points ago +5 / -0

I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling with sin, but there is hope. First, your church should have Christian counselors to help you overcome the temptation that leads to sin. If your church does not have anyone available, then you can go to https://biblicalcounseling.com/find-a-counselor/

and find an ACBC (Association of Certified Biblical Counselors) Counselor who can help you.

1 Cor 10:13 "13 No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it."

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XGemInaV 5 points ago +6 / -1

https://www.youtube.com/c/SensusFidelium/search?query=chastity

https://www.youtube.com/c/SensusFidelium/search?query=impurity

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRQBaYfD1Go

“No one can live continually in sin and continue to say the Rosary: either they will give up sin or they will give up the Rosary.” ~Bishop Hugh Doyle

Which sin? If it is porn, you have to maintain custody of the eyes and not allow impure images into your mind. You're getting dragged into that sin because you're entertaining impure thoughts which your senses have brought in. You'll be able to control your thoughts easier if you stop visiting bad sites or watching bad TV shows and if you pray to God to help you cleanse your memory so as to forget the impure images that are there.

If it is drugs or alcohol, you may need to get friends or family to help you detox because bodily cravings of cocaine are difficult to control.

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Europa 3 points ago +3 / -0

Sensus fidelium….that site has saved my life.

Listen to it every night as I fall asleep.

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highlandparker 5 points ago +5 / -0

AA. Surrendered 35 years ago. One Day At A Time

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covfefe_americano 4 points ago +4 / -0

I think a lot of folks regard addiction as something "other people" deal with, but the reality is very few of us are not addicted to something.

You are struggling with temptation unique to you, although the addiction itself might be something many have. It doesn't matter. Except that it does, because this is your struggle. Something about this addiction is what the evil in this world thinks can prevent you from loving God, loving your best self, and getting better. Don't let that evil think you are weak to it. There is inherent strength within you.

I think there is no easy "fix". That being said, however, every stumble and every fall matters, because you work to say no the next time. And the next. And the next, with the knowledge that at some point you stumble less. I feel very strongly that having a bible next to you (you don't have to read it) and/or saying "Lord, have mercy" as my times as needed can give you a fighting chance to rebuke your temptation.

I am dealing with my own tempations, and they have a weird way of hitting you at your worst. Be prepared for it, and try to avoid the "triggers" to your particular addiction. Others here have made very good suggestions as well.

Good luck, Fren, and God Bless.

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7dskei 4 points ago +4 / -0

You are right. You don't have the strength, but Jesus does. He died so that you may rise and be free in Him. If you have the desire to quit (sounds like you do), and belief in Jesus, then He will strip this addiction from you and nothing can stop that. Remember God works in His own time. Learn to accept His timing.

And be certain Jesus will never hate you. He will always love you with a supreme love like nothing else.

Pray, read the The Word, and repent. If you stop, then restart until you stop again. Then start again.

I started watching pornography at the age of 12 and became very addicted, ultimately watching it daily at my worst. It wasn't until I turned to Jesus, repented, and realized how much it hurt Jesus for him to watch his child sin that he freed me from that desire.

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DaesDaemar 4 points ago +4 / -0

Praise and worship. There's a reason why every church service starts with that, because it gets our hearts and minds oriented correctly.

Listen to praise music as much as you can, and at least 15-30min/day. And praise God for all the good things you have in your life, that He has done for you, and in faith for things he is doing and will do in the future.

Praise and Worship breaks chains, changes the atmosphere where you live, and is required for a healthy, vivid Christian life.

Lastly, get rid of this "I'm making a mockery" nonsense. We all do. Jesus knew this when he died for us. It's not relevant. Dump it. Life is a battle, and we're in a spiritual war. It's not always easy, but it is worth it.

One more thing, learn about Praying in Tongues. It's extremely powerful. Here's an article from a patriot, Praying Medic:

https://prayingmedic.com/2016/03/07/5-easy-steps-praying-tongues/

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CaptBobbles 4 points ago +4 / -0

Have you noticed that the more you struggle with it, the greater the temptation? Don’t struggle - you only give it strength in doing so. You cannot help yourself, but real help exists. Take time to meditate, and pray. There’s no problem that cannot be resolved when you place your trust in God. Also, stop berating yourself - God doesn’t condemn you, nor should you. Ask His help with a sincere heart, and He will answer. Don’t begrudge your helplessness, but let it be a cry for help to Him. May God bless you and free you.

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Cabal-Bot 4 points ago +4 / -0

Habitual sin is one the hardest to overcome- as I was told- so I’ll tell you- be patient with yourself. Keep trying & keep praying & keep confessing ❤️ God is with you.

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Fatality 4 points ago +4 / -0

Anon, it comes down to a decision to say "NO", then doing what it takes to say no consistently. You can do it with willpower or there are anonymous support groups like AA or NA to help. Envision how happy you will be without that shackle weighing you down, and aim for it, then get it. Getting free of addictions is worth it.

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PepevsGhost 4 points ago +4 / -0

Me also, be good and pray to our LORD

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CavePeasant 4 points ago +4 / -0

Gym. 100% start going to the gym. Become a king of aesthetics. Destroy all weakness in the temple of iron.

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Martha1776 4 points ago +4 / -0

Not sure if you belong to a church or not but many churches have programs and resources. One of my young boys got ensnared in something and we got him into counseling which helped, we sought our referral from someone in our church. We found a veteran, who aligns with our values and morals. Shame is a cycle and Satan will use it to keep you ensnared. We can sometimes be our own worst enemy and beat ourselves up as opposed to humbling ourselves admitting our mistakes and seeking help, comfort and strength when we get stuck. My son couldn’t get past his shame and felt like he could never be “good” again. Our Lord and our Savior loves each of us and want us to have happiness, repentance is difficult but I don’t believe the Lord wants us to suffer in misery and shame, that’s Satan. I told my son no matter what I love him and he has to forgive himself and when he falters just start again because the Lord and his family is on his side and wants him to find happiness and peace. He is past it, but it has been a rough road and he was very young to have to deal with it (pornography). Our children are being exposed so young and especially girls, the average age is 10. I shared these videos with my son, this may not be your issue but it may align with how you feel, but seek out others who have overcome their addiction and talk with them, hiding in shame is a vicious cycle. You don’t have to confess your sins to the world but opening up to others is the first step, seek help from those who will be on your side. This is a video of a young girl who struggled with porn addiction, it’s the first video I found for my son and I cried when I realized how he must have felt. Have faith, pray and the Lord will listen but unfortunately it’s not simple. You will be in my prayers friend. https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/media/video/2015-03-0005-pornography-addiction-is-there-hope?lang=eng

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64KRAM59 3 points ago +3 / -0

Get the book, HOLINESS by John Charles Ryle (1816-1900) simple truths that are achievable!!!

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SpaceForceTribunals 3 points ago +3 / -0

The struggle is real. God’s grace covers you though, and because your sins are covered by the blood, God sees Jesus when he looks at you.

The best next step is likely to get plugged into a church with your peers, and reach out to church leadership.

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RugerP89 3 points ago +3 / -0

Recommend looking into this de-fungus protocol that's been making rounds on 4chan's /x/ forum the last couple months:

https://www.docdroid.net/UXkRhZh/cdf-pdf

Reconcile Trump getting mocked for suggesting shining UV light in the body to cure COVID.

This protocol zapped any and all desire to drink a beer by day 2. It has also put a stop to many deviant thoughts. To that end, I can imagine LGBT not even being a 'thing' in the upcoming decades when Darkness (fungus) is brought to Light.

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CMND-CTRL 3 points ago +3 / -0

The folks here have given some great advice already. Something that helped for me was Kratom. It has worked for a lot who have tried to kick alcohol and opiates. If you go that route just don't buy it at some gas station. Order online from a website with a decent reputation its very cheap. Think I used happyhippo? Also make sure to stay well hydrated especially with this heat. Good luck buddy

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TacticalWitdotcom 3 points ago +3 / -0

If it's porn, I recommend the book Pure Desire. They also other resources available. Among many things, it explains the chemical highjacking of the brain that takes place from the hit a man gets from viewing it. They provide tools including the double-bind worksheet and understanding HALTS (hungry, angry, lonely, tired, stressed) triggers. Lots of good tools. My husband is happy to talk one-on-one with anyone he can help.

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Annestaan 3 points ago +3 / -0

Jesus is our recovery and stand up! I plead that over myself and my family daily. Love overcomes everything.

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Hatch 2 points ago +2 / -0

I will share my situation in the hope that it will give you some hope.

I am married, to the same lady, 34 years later this month. From year 5 or so, until year 30. I was not a good person to her. I never cheated or anything like that, I was just mean to her, specifically with how I spoke to her. I always thought it was her fault because she "started" it, etc.

Around year thirty it finally dawned on me the problem was me. I was simply mistreating her. I saw her as someone to be loved and cherished, but still the problem remained. With that realization I prayed for God to for forgiveness and to help me treat her better. Each time after an argument where I was clearly in the wrong I would immediately recognize my sin and pray for forgiveness and that my heart would be changed and I would ask her for forgiveness and explain that I now recognize that it is me that is the problem. Sometimes this happened on consecutive days. Practically every week had an incident.

This sequence of events persisted for about a year. Each time I begged God to help me, to change me, to make me treat my wife the way she deserved. Then one morning I awoke, and I saw her in a whole new light and felt completely different towards her. The problem was gone and I no longer treated her so poorly. God had answered my prayers!

Since then, about three years ago, we have had a fantastic relationship serving Christ together. She says it is like I am a new person.

So, my advice is keep trying to resist the temptation and ask for forgiveness when you fail and wait on God to act. There is hope!

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HelpDonny 2 points ago +2 / -0

The concept of God’s love and forgiveness despite your sin will help you get out from under the power of sin. True story. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=fTMyraMXHsU

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TwitterHatesHer 2 points ago +2 / -0

I’m sorry to hear you are struggling. It’s good to recognize a problem and to take Jesus’ sacrifice seriously, and in that way you are ahead of many people.

But, part of taking his gift seriously is remembering that he deemed you worthy of the sacrifice. He believes that you will use your life to grow and become a wonderful addition to God’s kingdom. Your part for now is to figure out what you must learn from this trial to overcome it. One day you will look back on this time and see how far you have come and you will have the prize of both knowledge and success.

For now though, we must assume if “just stop” brute willpower isn’t working yet, you will probably have to invest some time and effort in learning. Becoming a bit more tactical in you effort... This is the part finding professionals is helpful, and I do recommend seeking some out. No reason to risk going without a map when they are available. Don’t let shame stop you from seeking help, because professionals have seen it all before and you are inherently worth helping because you are a child of God.

That said, I suspect you’ll find that you will have to address more than just the specific addiction to deal with it. Maybe you have unresolved pain from the past that you need to address. Perhaps you have an undiagnosed mental or physical health condition (for example: people with ADHD are statistically more prone to all sorts of negative things without treatment, including addiction). Even people, locations, situations could be a factor that makes it harder. Lots of things can be a part of the nasty feedback loops that make a difficult thing like your situation harder, but by identifying the other parts of the loop you will help avoid taxing your willpower as much.

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Kanime1224 2 points ago +2 / -0

I have seem CR be mentioned. Great program however I am currently going through another Christian program called Re:Generation. See if they have one near you as well. Legitimately am finding the root of my sin nature and working with God to strengthen me and heal me fully so I may live a full life for him. My struggles I am recovering from are homosexuality and pornography mainly, and God has already worked numbers on my heart. Re:Generation is a safe place to develop strong relationships with others but most importantly God so that we as believers can walk in freedom from sin with Christ. I wish you the best of luck my fellow believer, may The Lord bless you and keep you.

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brain_dead 2 points ago +2 / -0

Someone already told you about AA.

Whatever it is, you need support group. Find a group so you can be support and know that Christ loves you.

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throwawayforyou 2 points ago +2 / -0

Blessings or curses? You decide.

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RiverWolf 2 points ago +2 / -0

Lots of good answers here. Generally speaking, the ability to form habits is the ability to program ourselves. Once an addiction or habit is formed, it is easier to replace it with some other practice that is good and beneficial, or at least morally neutral, which over time can reprogram you to the new behavior with the strength of a habit, so it becomes automatic. Also, most habits have a trigger context, which once identified, you may find easier to avoid the habit by avoiding the trigger, or replacing it as well. Will pray for your victory in this battle.

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FractalizingIron 2 points ago +2 / -0

Two points:

One, learn about and understand the causes of addiction, and how and what it is.

How Childhood Trauma Leads to Addiction

Life Advice Will Change Your Future

Two, connect with Dave Hayes healing ministry, and learn about the emotional healing techniques he teaches, by healing through Jesus Christ.

He teaches a very simple and effective (based on results) method of letting God heal you through Jesus.

"Emotional Healing in 3 Easy Steps (The Kingdom of God Made Simple)"

Telegram: https://t.me/praying_medic

Also: https://prayingmedic.com/

Not saying this will resolve everything, but I think it will go a long way to helping you healing and therefore being more capable to dealing with the addiction.

Remember: God and Jesus love you, no matter what, so never give up hope. And be patient.

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yldngo 2 points ago +2 / -0

I'll 2nd what u/BigDaddy1reboot said. Also, DO NOT GIVE UP! God is not finished with you and will never give up on you! Roman's 8:29 and 8:11. He is working in your situation and when you reach out and lean into Him He will strengthen you.

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Notimportant81 2 points ago +2 / -0

It's very hard to give advice without specifics. Booze? You need professionals help or you could die. Cocaine, heroin? At least a 30 day in house treatment. Cigarettes? Vape.

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BuckeyeAnon 2 points ago +2 / -0

I have been able to overcome sin in my life by repeating Philippians 4:13, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”

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PowderRoomPolitics 2 points ago +2 / -0

Romans 7-8 describe your struggle well. The recognition of your own lack of strength in yourself is actually a better sign than you may think. Ask God for the strength to overcome, flee areas that make the temptation stronger, and take it one day at a time. Praise Him for each day you stay clean, and repent promptly when you don't. As the Ephesians were told, "We are His workmanship, created for good works in Jesus our Messiah, which He has prepared in advance for us." He will never lead us into temptation, and when it comes He will always make a means of escape from it - even through means of a trial.

This song from Farrell and Farrell is one of my favorite reminders of that: https://duckduckgo.com/?q=He+Will+Always+Make+A+way%3A+Farrell+and+Farrell&atb=v315-1&iax=videos&ia=videos&iai=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3Di7iliiX_dao

https://www.songlyrics.com/farrell-farrell/he-will-always-make-a-way-lyrics/

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numina18 2 points ago +2 / -0

You should be asking God's help against the demons who are causing your temptation. Just say, "Help me, Jesus" when you are tempted. Addiction to a substance has a normal trajectory, as with detox, etc. You might need help for that. Other addictions, like pornography, are very difficult to undo, since the demons have you in their slave grip. A thought from them and you are back at it. If it is this kind of addiction, you need to fight with God's help. He will give it to you if you ask. You must ask. You have to learn to say "no" to the demons. They don't like that.

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ThePowerOfPrayer 2 points ago +2 / -0

Think about how uncomfortable you are even admitting what the addiction is and then read the following words of wisdom-

Proverbs 28:13

He that covereth his sins shall not prosper: but whoso confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy.

I'm not asking you to reveal what your addiction is, but your discomfort is something you're going to need to address head on at some point.

What I can tell you, as somebody who quit smoking cold turkey after smoking 1-2 packs a day for 7 years, is that it's impossible to quit anything unless you truly want to.

In other words, you can't tell yourself something like this, "I really enjoy smoking but I know it's bad for me. It would be a good idea if I quit, because it's expensive, because it causes cancer, because <insert multiple other reasons>" and expect to be successful.

I know, because I tried quitting smoking several times and never made it longer than a couple days.

Then I did quit for about a month, and thought I had finally beaten the habit for good.

I ended up going to a bar and having a couple of drinks. Somebody offered me a cigarette without me even asking for one, and I foolishly accepted it. Even worse, the first thing I did after leaving that bar was to buy a pack of cigarettes and start smoking again.

I smoked for roughly another year or so before I actually quit for good.

How did I finally overcome my smoking addiction?

I was not a Christian at the time I did so. I was agnostic, and didn't really think too much about spiritual matters. With that being said, looking back on it now, I believe it was the Holy Spirit working within me that allowed me to finally break my addiction.

I came down with a case of bronchitis and it felt like somebody was sticking a knife in my chest when I tried taking a drag off a cigarette, so I put it out.

My lungs felt worse than they'd ever felt in my entire life and it was 3 days before they cleared up and felt like normal again. I didn't smoke a cigarette the entire time.

When I woke up on the fourth day, I instinctively reached for my pack of smokes without even thinking about it because my lungs felt better, but then I stopped myself.

My conscience or inner voice, which I now believe was the Holy Spirit speaking to me, had this to say-

"You haven't had a cigarette for 3 days. You've gotten past the physical withdrawal stage and you have no excuse. If you light up that cigarette, you're going to keep smoking, and one day in the future, you're going to wake up and your lungs are going to feel like they just did and they will feel that way every day for the rest of your life. Don't light it."

In the past, whenever I thought about quitting, I'd always smoked the "last pack" first. I would make excuses about how hard it was to get over the physical addiction and never made it more than 2-3 days without finally caving in, other than the time I quit for roughly a month, of course.

I put the cigarette back in the pack and threw the entire pack in the garbage, and I've never bought another pack of cigarettes again.

Here's a word from James, the brother of Jesus, that may help you.

James 4:1-10

1 From whence come wars and fightings among you? come they not hence, even of your lusts that war in your members?

2 Ye lust, and have not: ye kill, and desire to have, and cannot obtain: ye fight and war, yet ye have not, because ye ask not.

3 Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume it upon your lusts.

4 Ye adulterers and adulteresses, know ye not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God? whosoever therefore will be a friend of the world is the enemy of God.

5 Do ye think that the scripture saith in vain, The spirit that dwelleth in us lusteth to envy?

6 But he giveth more grace. Wherefore he saith, God resisteth the proud, but giveth grace unto the humble.

7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.

8 Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded.

9 Be afflicted, and mourn, and weep: let your laughter be turned to mourning, and your joy to heaviness.

10 Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.

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ringobingo 2 points ago +2 / -0

Everyone has given great suggestions. I recommend Celebrate Recovery as well, someone already suggested this. In addition to that, please commit to learning James 4:7-8a - Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God, and He will come near to you.

Make it a song, write it on cards you post all over the house, write it on your hand if you have to. When the temptation hits, say this out loud. God always gives us a way to resist temptation, and you clearly want to resist. Speak His Word aloud and that resistance becomes stronger. Your resolve will strengthen. God says “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” It’s ok to be weak, because He is strong enough to overcome.

I’ll be praying for you. 💕🙏

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filthycasul [S] 1 point ago +1 / -0

thank you all for the replies

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Halya 1 point ago +1 / -0

Is there something you always wanted to do but because of the addiction you cant? Replace the urge with something you are passionate about.

Addictions are from the devil to enslave you. If you can find a prayer that touches your heart, every time you get an urge say that prayer.

There was a time in my life, that every day for 2 weeks something bad happened. Like all 4 tires sliced, lost my job of 10 years with glowing evaluations, was shot at driving home. I had enough and I 'blessed' the devil promising that with every disaster I will pray the rosary and the Poor Souls prayer. I had no more incidents after that.

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NanaQ45 1 point ago +1 / -0

You have already taken the first step, now leap into recovery. I did 28 days of treatment, 6 months of outpatient treatment and 3 meetings a day for 90 days and at leat 1 meeting a day for years. It saved my life, but most importantly, it GAVE ME A LIFE. I am so grateful. It was hard and it sucked a bit, but I made the best friends I've ever had and their support and friendships sustain me. My relationship with God was non existent. Now? Me and God are homeys and He always has my back, like to the point of people should seriously leave me alone because their karma jumps at them qiick these days when they fool with me. Not me. Its all GOD! All of it.

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Datadude 2 points ago +2 / -0

It is our great fortune that you have returned to the flock, it was never quite right when you were wandering lost in the darkness.

Courage and Conviction, defines your journey home.

Much Love and Respect.

NanaQ.

Much Love and Respect.

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NanaQ45 2 points ago +2 / -0

Aww man, you're the best. ValQyrie arrives tomorrow, hopefully around 5pm CST! I'm stoked!

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Datadude 2 points ago +2 / -0

T- minus 15 minutes

"Come Sail Away"

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=e5MAg_yWsq8

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Datadude 1 point ago +1 / -0

Ding Ding Ding

Bon Voyage my good friend.

Keep the sails up and the keel down in all that you do and your journeys will be many.

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NanaQ45 2 points ago +2 / -0

Oh, she did arrive! A beauty. She also had stowaway spiders and I have just unleashed hell on them. Lol. I'll keep you posted.

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Datadude 1 point ago +1 / -0

Sweet,

We should say our goodbyes now, once behind the helm you'll set a open course for paradise, and we'll never hear from you again.

On occasions when we find ourselves grinning like Cheshire cats, thinking of the one that got away, know in your heart it's you we dream of.

On your voyage of victories, conquering all.. :-)