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two weeks ago on Monday my sweet sister Petra died.
While my mother, my niece and Hellmut got better (after the "Rona" influenza), I got the message that Petra was also in hospital with lung infection.
As soon as I could I drove the 300 km to her and she also already was out of the hospital again after one week.
But she was not well enough with her lungs, after the four days I visited her, she was again in hospital. I was called that it would not look good. I drove to her, but it was already too late.
She was gone, she was gone totally peacefully - so peacefully I know for sure that she is with God now. I sat there at the bed, looking in her peaceful face and only then I really knew how much I loved her.
I could not write about it, because the sadness would have overwhelmed me. And I have to function, preparing the funeral, being their for my mother, my niece, a lot bureaucracy, making decisions, phone calls, etc.
So I lurked around here, with you fren family, commented and posted to stay "normal" and distracted, not to fall into the abyss of absolute sadness.
Then my mother once again came into hospital now at the weekend. She is o.k., but I don't know wether this will really stay this way and how long. I hope so very much.
But now my strength is leaving, too much and many obstacles make it really complicated for me to stay strong and clear. The sadness has got me, but I still have to function the next two weeks until the funeral is over. Until then there is no time or room for this sadness.
Yes, she was vaccinated. The hospital said it was probably rapid lung cancer. I had Artemisia Annua with me to give to her, but I came too late.
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Once again thank you for all the prayers you sent for Petra, for my family and me which helped in tough and dark times. I often felt it immediately before reading your answers to my post with the prayers.
God bless and protect you all as well as your families.
That is terrible news, fren. May God give you strength to do what you need.
Thank you. Yes, strength, I really need right now.
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Thank you, fren.
Thank you for opening up & sharing your heartache, fren. I'm so sorry about your sister. ((hugs)) to you & your mom. I hope your mom's health improves & that you both can be a comfort to one another❤
Thank you, fren. Especially for the hug.
Unfortunately my mother can not comfort me, Petra was her first, her oldest daughter. And already in 2017 when my father died she took it very badly.
I am her youngest daughter and have to be the head of the family, but right now in this hour I feel very weak.
What a rough few years for your family. Even though you're the one taking care of things now, I hope you'll allow yourself time to feel weak & sad. Having those moments of real-ness might help you be stronger for yourself & others as the days progress.
Thank you for your wise words, dear fren. God bless you.
I am sincerely hoping this website can help you to feel a bit stronger. It’s a website about near death experiences, and I truly believe this will give you an immense amount of hope and peace. Click on the site index, click on any of the years, click on the peoples names to get the full story.
I believe your sister is very safe and very much alive and very much filled with love and joy right now - she is home. https://www.nderf.org/
Dear Sally, thank you for this information. I will look it up in the next days.
And yes, years ago when a very dear and loved friend died, he still was around me for some time. So I know since then, that our loved ones are safe, still care for us and our souls are eternal and everlasting.
All Glory to God and may God bless you.
Oh dear Lord, how awful - I feel for you. May you be strengthened and comforted at this very sad time, may the Lord hold you up and grant you peace, may His love sustain you. Will continue in prayer for you and your family. Look after yourself fren, bless you.
Thank you, my dear.
Hardest thing I ever did was watch my sister die of cancer. She was diagnosed then scheduled her needle in a haystack chance for a month later, after a school performance her granddaughter was in. Three pack a day smoker who I tried to convince to quit after I did.
I am sorry, dear fren, to hear that.
Petra was smoking too and therefore I am glad for her that it was quick and peacefully. Otherwise it would have been probably very bad the next days, weeks. But I am sure that the vax did their part to it also. She always was strong in taking the hits of life.
Takes a long time to heal, my sister was 49 and a bit before her cancer diagnosis I'd tried to get her to quit smoking, I'd told her do you want to die at 49 like mom did? That's exactly what happened...
Yes, it takes time. And you gave you best to save her. So sad, dear fren. God bless you.
My sister died in 2007 and it took years to heal and you never heal completely. There's a lot to the story, but this isn't a place to share it. What little I shared no one believed... Too much ADD to write a book kek.
You love her very much. And love never stops - that is very good, but also very challenging.
In the end this love forms, carries and also protect us - the whole way long.
Maybe someday you will find the right time and place for this story of your sister and you. So many out there who probably exactly need to hear this story for their development and upliftment. We are all bon-fire creatures waiting for important life-changing stories.
God bless, guide and protect you, dear fren.
Dear fren,
may you have the strength you need to get through this difficult time period.
I hope you can feel the combined caring and prayers from all the various anons here to support you and your family.
Thank you. Yes, I feel your prayers. It is getting calmer.
My dear fren, you can grieve. I know you are trying to hold on until the funeral and all the other tasks are done. But you need to release some of the sadness. I am grateful that you feel strong enough that you can come here and share your story. I will pray for your continued strength and for the well being of your loved ones during this very sad time. Hugs to you, fren.
Thank you, dear fren, especially for the hug.
Yes, you are all fren family in good and also very bad times. May God have mercy and lead us all to better times and places soon.
Prayers for you and your family.
Thank you, dear fren.
Thank you, fren.
Yes, I had it known also and my heart hardened after that a bit. Around me everyone is vaxed.
But when I sat there next to her peaceful face and herself gone, my heart was no more hardened, but I only felt the deep love for her and that I came too late to speak to her once again.
We often think we "have come to terms", but sometimes we learn that it isn't so in some times later. That's how it was for me.
If you want, try to use the time you have with your family, considering this. I couldn't.
That is very good.
I pray Lord that you with be with this precious family as they work through their sorrow. Please be the light in the darkness for them, the calm after the storm, the Rock of ages. Give them your strength to do what needs to be done. I pray especially that you will touch them all with your healing hand and let them know how much you love them. Give them your peace that passes understanding. We ask all this in the blessed name of Jesus...Amen.
Amen. Lovely prayer.
Amen!
Rock of Ages. This will help a lot, dear fren. I had to smile. Thank you.
Amen
Praying for you. I pray peace & strength. I pray clarity over your mind & wisdom to make the right decisions.
Thank you, fren, that is exactly what I need.
Oh my God. I’m so sorry. This is what breaks me whenever I see people saying “enjoy the show”. I am praying for you right now. I know many of us we’re going to be going through this soon as well, I have a twin brother who is vaxed and boosted to the max, My 83 year old mother took the vaccine… I pray that God, and Everything he has created and commanded, embraces you and your family with the upmost love and loving kindness as you go through this incredibly difficult walk in your life. I’m so sorry, fren, And I’m thankful you know she is with God because she most definitely is.
Thank you, Sally, for these words. God bless and protect your family.
For two weeks the "enjoy the show" also helped me to stay "normal". Life and death are often very close together and I don't mind people that are having another perspective right now than me.
There is time for sadness. May I recommend sitting with your sadness, in quiet, without anything else in your mind, for short periods? For me, separating it out from daily life obligations helps, instead of trying to do both at the same time.
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Thank you, fren.
The sadness feels so overwhelming, I want to wait till after the funeral, because of fear not to get all the things done that I have to do, because there is no other who can do it.
I have a feeling you're doing an excellent job.
There is neither past nor future. Only the eternal present moment. And what a special moment you're in. Don't waste it. Meditate. Sit with him in eternity for 5 minutes. He'll recoup the time.
We're all with you in spirit.
I am sad that my mother couldn't be around to see this. She had three strokes after taking the jab, then finally died this past December, on the 14th. She always loved Donald Trump, because he was "a New Yorka." She was born in Sunnyside, New York on August 16, 1930 and died in Lancaster, California on December 14, 2021. She loved him. I hope she is looking down from Heaven.
She is in heaven, always watching you with loving eyes. And sees all the enfolding with our movement with all the fun and sad or horrific stories. But she now has the 40.000 ft view and knows it all.
You love her very much and she knows that. I wish you that you can have a good time with her on Dec 14th, with a candle and prayers. God bless you and send you comforting love and peace for that day.
One of our prized possessions was a picture of her sitting on a swing in the backyard of our house in Southern California. She is wearing the same type of one-piece bathing suit like Betty Grable did for that famous pic. She has on dark cats-eye sunglasses and her legs are in the air. She was a bombshell back in the day, had eight kids, it's no wonder my dad couldn't keep his hands off her. Sometimes you have to look at a picture like that and forget the bad times too - she could be abusive and had a temper like Krakatoa. You learn to take the good with the bad. She isn't suffering anymore, neither is Dad, and bringing it up now wouldn't accomplish anything.
I have no regrets. It's all good.
Yes, you describe it perfectly! My dad died in 2017, he had Parkinson, and also died suddenly in his sleep, peacefully. So we took a wonderful picture of him, where he smiles all over his face while being at the seaside on a sunny day, to enlarge it for the funeral and now it hangs at the wall in the home of my mother.
With Petra I fortunately also have such a picture from a happy sunny day with me with her smiling all over her face.
These pictures help a lot to focus only on the love for both of them, which will remain forever.
Oh, fren, I am so sorry to hear your news. May your sister, Petra, rest peacefully in the arms of our Lord and Savior, and may He grant your family peace and comfort at this time. 😢
Yes. Amen. Thank you, dear LoneWulf, for your kind words.
I am so sorry, dear Fren.
Thank you, fren.
Lifting you up, Fren ❤️
Thank you, fren.
Prayers for you, for comfort and strength and to know that you will see her again and that you are loved.
Thank you, dear fren, for these prayers.
Prayers for strength and comfort for you. I’m so sorry for your loss. 😔
Thank you for your prayers, fren.
Almighty Father, source of forgiveness and salvation, grant Petra who has passed from this life may, through the intercession of the Blessed Virgin Mary and of all the saints, come to share your Eternal happiness through Christ our Lord. Amen
Amen. Dear fren, thank you for your prayer for Petra.
I'm so glad you are here with us. I'm sorry for the loss of your sweet sister Petra. I was just commenting on another post that some of us are dealing with heavy grief and it's important to remember not all are in the same frame of mind. Our love for each other makes a world of difference in continuing to get up everyday and carry on. I will keep you in my prayers.❤🙏
Thank you, AngelCole, for your kind words and the prayers.
I am so sorry for your loss Fren.
Thank you, fren.
God Bless You Fren and Your Family. May Petra be resting in Heaven. She sees you and appreciates you. Take care.
Yes, she is safe and well now. Thank you, fren.
I didn’t see your previous posts. But I will put you and your family in my prayers tonight. Stay strong. Remember that there is so much more after this life.
Yes, I will remember and thank you for your prayers.
We love you.
This group has helped me through the losses my family has faced in the last couple years.
We have strength to lend you when you need it.
Im sorry.
May God bless you,
In Jesus name amen.
Love you.
Thank you, dear fren, for your prayer and your love.
You are welcome.
May your dear sister rest in peace. I am sorry for your loss, and pray that you find comfort knowing she is in the loving hands of God. In the coming days, I will keep you in my prayers.
Yes, she is with God now and in peace. Thank you for your prayers, dear fren.
Terribly sorry for your loss. I too lost a dear friend to this God forsaken poison shot. These people must be held accountable. It will do nothing for those we lose, but it would go a long way towards avoiding the suffering of our children and their future children.
You sound very strong to me. You shall endure. Know to be selfish as need be. You can't be everything for everyone. Accept help from others. A remarkable thing that stems from these dark times is that the cream in your life rises to the top. You find out how much and how many people truly care about you. Let them care for you. I will continue to pray for you. It will never go away, but it will move further away until it becomes manageable. Stay strong.
Dear Witsend, thank you for your wise words. Yes, we have to stop these crimes very soon.
That is really true:
Unfortunately too much truth of this kind is much too much. Yes, I am reaching out for help, but had some very strange encounters while doing so.
This family here is really much more help despite the distance. I feel all your love and compassion, it strengthens me.
Thank you for your prayers and God bless you.
I wish we could be there with you friend. I’m so sorry for your loss. May God give mercy on us all. With love my friend. ❤️🙏
You all are with me here, I feel it. Thank you, dear fren.