I've always had a side that leaned toward procrastination, but never to the point that I seem physically, mentally unable to take care of business.
For example, I still have a number of task not started, or unfinished that I need to complete to protect my property, family wellbeing, in the event of civil unrest.
I have done somethings, but I am very frustrated that I am having such difficulty getting key important task completed. "You fucking had the chance and failed them", is how I will feel if I don't complete these things.
I am hesitant to blame what might be pure sorry ass laziness on some outside force, but damn it man, I swear I seem to be under the influence of some bad mojo, and was just wondering if I was alone in this.
Kek. I had to chuckle, Muckey.
Welcome to the spiritual war. You can bet your bottom dollar that there are spiritual forces around you that want to hold you down and make it hard for you to do what your heart and conscience are prompting you to do.
(Ignorance of the dimensions of spiritual influence is a great problem for humanity at large, btw)
That said, you've already gotten some really good advice in the comment section.
In talking about the spiritual dimension, I'm not suggesting that it's all just supernatural. The spiritual influences can definitely manifest in psychological symptoms, like feeling deflated, lethargic, even 'depression' at its more severe points.
In many cases, prayer (in whatever form feels most suitable to you: reflective, meditative, or just talking with the Big Man, etc) can assist. Like checking in with your mentor, letting him know what's going on. The process itself can be therapeutic, but it can also activate other spiritual forces who want to lift you up, encourage you, protect you and assist you, too.
But most of all, I really like what u/changeagent/ wrote.
Just wanted to chime in a raise a point about yeah, 'unknown influences'. These are 100% real, and sometimes it just takes mental reflection to identify them.
100%. It's called spiritual warfare for a reason.
Thanks. Yup there is a spiritual realm in play here. Prayer is key, but as Julius Caesar (Shakespeare) said, "If I could pray to move, then prayer would move me," IOW, I don't seek out that mentor as often as I should, even though I know that is what I should do.
You, me and every other human alive
But fyi, it sounds like you are accomplishing a heck of a lot. Very impressive. So maybe relax a bit? We can only do what we can do.
Side note: I love posts like yours. It brings out the best in GAW. There are VERY few places on the interwebs where we can find such camaraderie and peer support that posts like yours elicit.
Either way, hang in there Duck.
It will take more than this pressure to Quack me.
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