I really don't know what to think of this.
As many of you know we've been in divorce discussions for over a year. She came to me an hour ago and said "Well, things are getting down to the wire ... and ... honestly... I dont want this ..."
And so I told her I will always love her and I meant all of my vows and that ultimately I just want her to be happy and I dont want her just deciding to be with me and then changing her mind again in a few weeks.
She says that she was thinking that way because of just how hard everything has been on us over the last few years. And as I told her, through sickness and in health, through rich and poor.
She then told me , laughingly, "will you take me back?"
She then proceeded to tell me she wants me to move in with them when they move in the coming weeks. I was like "yeah but we've been sleeping in separate rooms for more than six months now?" and she said "well? we'd have to change that, obviously."
I quite honestly don't know how to take all of this. God got me into this kind of acceptance phase, if you will, and now she hits me with this. So now I'm mentally like, yeah, of course, I love her .... but why did God have me go down that road in the first place?
NO clue what I'm supposed to be doing or if she's going to just change her mind in the coming weeks. But I promised to keep you all updated.
And quite honestly, I really think this is because so many of you have been praying for me. I really do. God is making moves behind the scenes and I'm floored. Today has really honestly felt like I'm in a dream.
EDIT: WE ARE NO LONGER IN SEPARATE ROOMS. She's sleeping in the room with me tonight.
Ya'll... I dont even know what to say. Glory, glory, glory. Hallelujah, this is a true testimony of God's power.
Amen. I agree marriages are being attacked heavily by Satan. I pray for you and your husband.
Hey, I'm just walking in to see/hear about the difficulties you've had. I'm very happy for you and the work God has done in your life.
Not only is Satan challenging marriages, but whole families too.
Take it one step at a time, one day at a time. If appropriate, might I suggest a couples devotional or study to help bring focus, maybe rekindle the unity.
For example, I've been recently more interested in apoligetics, and picked up a copy of "I don't have enough faith to be an Athiest". My oldest had apoligetics in high school at her private school, and the younger is now having it in her senior year. All of us were planning to re-read together to go through it. The wife heard the plan, so now we're going through the book together as a family with discussion and workbooks of all things.
While we are a Christian family and are all believers, we've never done anything like this together, study or reading, outside of family prayer on trips or during meals.
I guess I'm just saying it may help to do intellectual bonding activities in addition to expanding your shared interests of the outdoors.
Congrats on the togetherness. 😁