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ALL MY CONSPIRACY, THEORIST, FRIENDS, SOMETIMES IT'S A CURSE, AND NOT A BLESSING TO BE AWAKE.

IN MY OVER 45 YEARS OF BEHIND THE SCENES, INVISIBLE INTELLIGENCE WORK, I FEEL COMPELLED TO SHARE THE FOLLOWING FEAR, CONSIDERATION.

AWAKENING IS THE MOST LIBERATING, ALIENATING, EXCRUCIATING, EMPOWERING, LONELY, CONFUSING, FREEING, FRIGHTENING, EXPANSIVE JOURNEY.

AND IF YOU FIND YOURSELF STRUGGLING, TRYING TO PROCESS ALL THIS INSANITY, BELIEVE ME, WHEN I SAY YOU ARE NOT ALONE, NO ONE TALKS ABOUT THE DARKNESS.

THAT ACCOMPANIES AWAKENING OR THE GRIEF WE GO THROUGH.

NOT ONLY GRIEVING THE LIFE AND ILLUSIONS THAT YOU ONCE HAD, BUT THE REALIZATION THAT ALMOST EVERYTHING YOU THOUGHT YOU KNEW IS A LIE.

THE BELIEFS YOU'VE HELD, PEOPLE, YOU'VE TRUSTED, PRINCIPLES, YOU WERE TAUGHT.

ALL LIES.

SHATTERING ILLUSIONS IS NEVER AN ENJOYABLE EXPERIENCE.

THERE IS A CONSIDERABLE AMOUNT OF DISCOMFORT THAT COMES WITH GROWTH AND THE GREETING PROCESS DOESN'T STOP THERE WITH THESE NEWFOUND REALIZATIONS.

YOU WILL FIND YOURSELF GRIEVING ALL OVER AGAIN.

DRIPPING THE LAWS OF MANY RELATIONSHIPS WITH PEOPLE WHO JUST DON'T GET IT.

FEELING ALONE, BEING RIDICULED AND SHAMED, NOT ONLY BY THE MASSES, BUT FOR MANY OF YOU, YOUR VERY OWN FAMILY AND FRIENDS, TOO.

FEELING LIKE YOU NO LONGER HAVE MUCH IN COMMON WITH THE PEOPLE YOU'RE SURROUNDED BY.

STRUGGLING WITH CARING ON, BUFFED IT, SHALLOW CONVERSATIONS.

THAT LACK SUBSTANCE WITH THOSE WHO ARE STILL FAST ASLEEPY.

EVEN FEELING DISCONNECTED FROM YOUR ENTIRE SUPPORT SYSTEM BECAUSE THEY CAN'T SEE WHAT YOU SEE.

SOME EVEN GREED THE LOSS OF THEIR IGNORANCE BECAUSE IGNORANCE IS BLISS.

IN REALITY IS HARSH.

AWAKENING CAN BE A LONELY ROAD AND YOU WILL OFTEN FIND YOURSELF JOURNEYING ALONE.

THERE'S NO WAY SUGARCOAT IT.

AWAKENING TO THE REALITIES OF THIS WORLD IS BRUTAL.

IT WILL HAVE YOU RUNNING THROUGH THE ENTIRE DAMN IT.

YOU HAVE TO MASTER THE ART OF DIVING DOWN THE DARKEST RABBIT HOLES ONLY TO COME OUT AND STILL FUNCTION IN DAILY LIFE.

AND THAT'S A SKILL.

PEOPLE DON'T TALK ABOUT ENOUGH, SOME OF YOU ARE, OR WILL STRUGGLE WITH FEELING DISCONNECTED FROM FAMILY AND FRIENDS.

UNTIL THEY EXIST IN ANOTHER WORLD, PLEASE KNOW YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

AND NOT ONLY ARE YOU NOT ALONE, YOU HAVE AN ENTIRE GROUP OF LIKE, MINDED FOLKS. STANDING WITH YOU.

YOU MAY BE SET FOR REY BE SEPARATED BY MILES, BUT WE ARE DEEPLY CONNECTED IN MIND, PURPOSE, AND SPIRIT.

GOD LOVES YOU.

AND SO DO I.