Whatever you do, look for the Holy Spirit. Whether the church is doctrinaire according to your hopes or not, it is most important that people at the church (1) want to pray for you (because that's a good thing for you to want and for them to offer others) (2) that the Holy Spirit is there (which you'll know in your heart because it might make you feel like laughing and crying at the same time, or like deep peace, or a recognition that is strictly your own that I can't describe--but if you are asking to meet the Holy Spirit, he's looking to reach out to you)

I would say to look for the gifts of the spirit like moving in the prophetic, or laying on of hands--but there are those who emulate the power without the power. So, the best thing is to take the stress off yourself, and just say:

"God--I don't know what I believe or who I am--but I'm opening this door to learn. If you want me, call me and bring me closer."

God is faithful to answer a simple prayer and a true one. I'm praying for you right now as I type. I truly believe that if you look for God and ask for God to come to you, He will honor that prayer.

We're all dust, brother. But there's incredible joy and a literal eternity of it in God. And we can't get there by being smart or savvy or strong. We get there by asking God to take us deeper a little bit more everyday.

Whatever you do, look for the Holy Spirit. Whether the church is doctrinaire according to your hopes or not, it is most important that people at the church (1) want to pray for you (because that's a good thing for you to want and for them to offer others) (2) that the Holy Spirit is there (which you'll know in your heart because it might laughing and crying at the same time, or like deep peace, or a recognition that is strictly your own that I can't describe--but if you are asking to meet the Holy Spirit, he's looking to reach out to you)

I would say to look for the gifts of the spirit like moving in the prophetic, or laying on of hands--but there are those who emulate the power without the power. So, the best thing is to take the stress off yourself, and just say:

"God--I don't know what I believe or who I am--but I'm opening this door to learn. If you want me, call me and bring me closer."

God is faithful to answer a simple prayer and a true one. I'm praying for you right now as I type. I truly believe that if you look for God and ask for God to come to you, He will honor that prayer.

We're all dust, brother. But there's incredible joy and a literal eternity of it in God. And we can't get there by being smart or savvy or strong. We get there by asking God to take us deeper a little bit more everyday.