I admire your worthy fight against drink. But I would advise you not to put too much stock in Gurdjieff. He and his acolytes (Ouspensky and others) were grifters, preying on the gullibility of rich folks lacking in common sense.
When Brian Auten looks at any data or evidence pertaining to Hunter Biden or Joe Biden, he is Sgt. Schultz ("I see nothing"), but when he looks at any data or evidence pertaining to Donald Trump, he is Superman (X-ray vision).
Yup.