I'm still getting the feeling that this girl hated herself for things that happened to her, dissociated into multiple personalities and wanted to be ugly enough to not get victimized as a girl again. Plus drugs.

Then couldn't hate herself more or her abuser more, possibly because she's been gaslighted and manipulated, so projected jealousy into hate of the kids who had not suffered what she had, or of the type who participated in her abuser. The key to that piece is the projection of sexual identities onto kids, the repeating of 'faggot' onto the blonde boys especially. Works not be surprised to learn that there's a big elite circle of abusers in her town.

I'm still getting the feeling that this girl hated herself for things that happened to her, dissociated into multiple personalities and wanted to be ugly enough to not get victimized as a girl again. Plus drugs.