My hobby would be to read and learn. That’s why Q became an obsession. At the time I had the app on my phone, and when it would make the sound of the drop I would about jump out of my skin. I like to try to figure out the meanings and how they tie in together. My mind is always spinning. I have woke up during the night and say oh now I know what that means. Now I use that critical thinking when reading the Bible. Growing up we are told what the Bible means, but as our minds open up we really see the words jump at us to make our own decision of what is being expressed. There was a time I would’ve said working in my yard was my hobby, but now it has turned into hard core work. I’m not creative with making things but I do enjoy working on my house as I can.
I’m sorry that you have to endure this pain, but in life we all have pain by and struggles. Once we get past the anger and hurt, we can start to heal and come back stronger and different. We can’t control what other people say and do. But we are responsible for ourselves. So give it all over to him and let him pick up the pieces for you. May take quite a while but you will get there.
I’m pretty simple. I grind my own beans and prefer organic ones. My favorite ones are from my home state of SC which are Charleston Coffee Grinders. I normally use heavy whipping cream because it has no sugar or carbs and it’s about 50 calories a spoonful. I do like to splurge some and have flavored coffee and flavored creams. Depends on the day as to how many cups I may have, but never any more than 3.
I understand how exhausting this has been, but we are getting to close to the precipice to stop now. I think in the beginning we thought this would be done in no more than 3 yrs, but yet here we are. It’s a process, just live for the day. Each day brings something good, no matter how small. When we live too far into the future we miss much of what is happening today. Don’t sell yourself short. Take a break and rest.