I'll also add that the song, while you can say it's blasphemous, is actually about really good sex and bot specifically about God avtually being a woman.
Are you people saying Mac Miller killed himself on purpose?! As a die hard Mac fan that followed him since his K.I.D.S album, I was absolutely devastated beyond belief when Mac died. I actually to this day haven't gone back to being able to listen to music routinely since he died.
But I find it very hard to believe that he purposefully killed himself. After reading the dialogues extracted from his last texts to the drug dealers and the hooker who delivered him the drugs that were fentanyl laced, it really seemed way more like he was actually just trying to cope with depression with substances--much like I used to around the same time.
And the fent laced oxies ended up overwhelming him. So what makes you think that he purposefully took his own life? Unless im missing something that's kind of offensive.
Yeah I can accept that drug addiction is a form of killing one's self, although id still differentiate it from willful, conscious self-inflicted suicide. Mac's music got me through some of the best times of my life and some of the worst.
Scary enough, the peak of my polysubstance addiction occurred just a month or so after Mac died. I would spend evenings getting bartarded on xanax and nodded out on dilaudid and oxycodone. Then would stay up til the dead of night smoking ice so I wouldn't lose consciousness. Something about being able to really depress my nervous system then hyper stimulating it afterwards was a really dangerous guilty pleasure I used to take great joy in.
Its scary how I went from saying "I'll never do speedballs because that's what killed celebrities in the 27 club." To saying, "As long as I take a xanax beforehand, the stimulants won't be as bad on top of the painkillers."
In reality the xanax just makes you maximally retarded so that speedballing no longer seems like as bad as an idea as not on xanax--as I would later realize.
Not even a month or so after Mac died, I accidentally took too many uppers and downers while on benzos and knocked myself into a seizure for a few minutes. Woke up with paramedics in my house and me denying anything happened cause I thought I was being raided by the feds.
Ill never forget the last moments as I was losing consciousness almost like a computer that gets "forcibly shutdown" by holding down the power button. One of my favorite Lil Wayne songs started playing vividly in my mind as I slowly descended out and away from my body just like a dream. It was a strangely peaceful experience until suddenly i shot back upright inside my own body and I started panicking trying to understand the situation.
I mightve almost died right alongside Mac Miller back in those days had it not been for the friend i was with who tried to wake me over and over and eventually called the EMTs. Crazy stuff man. Its continually perplexing how I could be one of the most hyperconscious, highly intuitive people I know, yet for those years I was also the most retarded, self-destructive persons I knew.
I've come a long way and its taken quite a while to begin to embrace sober living again, especially having to do so in this ultra shitty plandemic when I don't have the social support I would've had otherwise. But just taking it a day at a time, and not pressuring myself to be entirely sober to the point of self-loathing if I ever decide to smoke a blunt occasionally.
I really can't wait until we're past this period of history where everything in society is ass backwards and the globalist rule everything and oppress everyone. A big reason I embraced escapism is because I've known about the illuminati, and most real conspiracies since I was like 20 and started experimenting with psychedelics and guided meditation. It just always felt pointless to want to accept all the corruption and rigged systems within society and to have very few others to even talk about the things I was aware of.
The NESARA/GESARA system that Trump wants to bring us to sounds like a dream come true to someone like me who's always saw the whole system as hopelessly rigged. The waiting is killing meee.
I'll also add that the song, while you can say it's blasphemous, is actually about really good sex and bot specifically about God avtually being a woman.
Are you people saying Mac Miller killed himself on purpose?! As a die hard Mac fan that followed him since his K.I.D.S album, I was absolutely devastated beyond belief when Mac died. I actually to this day haven't gone back to being able to listen to music routinely since he died.
But I find it very hard to believe that he purposefully killed himself. After reading the dialogues extracted from his last texts to the drug dealers and the hooker who delivered him the drugs that were fentanyl laced, it really seemed way more like he was actually just trying to cope with depression with substances--much like I used to around the same time.
And the fent laced oxies ended up overwhelming him. So what makes you think that he purposefully took his own life? Unless im missing something that's kind of offensive.
Yeah I can accept that drug addiction is a form of killing one's self, although id still differentiate it from willful, conscious self-inflicted suicide. Mac's music got me through some of the best times of my life and some of the worst.
Scary enough, the peak of my polysubstance addiction occurred just a month or so after Mac died. I would spend evenings getting bartarded on xanax and nodded out on dilaudid and oxycodone. Then would stay up til the dead of night smoking ice so I wouldn't lose consciousness. Something about being able to really depress my nervous system then hyper stimulating it afterwards was a really dangerous guilty pleasure I used to take great joy in.
Its scary how I went from saying "I'll never do speedballs because that's what killed celebrities in the 27 club." To saying, "As long as I take a xanax beforehand, the stimulants won't be as bad on top of the painkillers."
In reality the xanax just makes you maximally retarded so that speedballing no longer seems like as bad as an idea as not on xanax--as I would later realize.
Not even a month or so after Mac died, I accidentally took too many uppers and downers while on benzos and knocked myself into a seizure for a few minutes. Woke up with paramedics in my house and me denying anything happened cause I thought I was being raided by the feds.
Ill never forget the last moments as I was losing consciousness almost like a computer that gets "forcibly shutdown" by holding down the power button. One of my favorite Lil Wayne songs started playing vividly in my mind as I slowly descended out and away from my body just like a dream. It was a strangely peaceful experience until suddenly i shot back upright inside my own body and I started panicking trying to understand the situation.
I mightve almost died right alongside Mac Miller back in those days had it not been for the friend i was with who tried to wake me over and over and eventually called the EMTs. Crazy stuff man. Its continually perplexing how I could be one of the most hyperconscious, highly intuitive people I know, yet for those years I was also the most retarded, self-destructive persons I knew.
I've come a long way and its taken quite a while to begin to embrace sober living again, especially having to do so in this ultra shitty plandemic when I don't have the social support I would've had otherwise. But just taking it a day at a time, and not pressuring myself to be entirely sober to the point of self-loathing if I ever decide to smoke a blunt occasionally.
I really can't wait until we're past this period of history where everything in society is ass backwards and the globalist rule everything and oppress everyone. A big reason I embraced escapism is because I've known about the illuminati, and most real conspiracies since I was like 20 and started experimenting with psychedelics and guided meditation. It just always felt pointless to want to accept all the corruption and rigged systems within society and to have very few others to even talk about the things I was aware of.
The NESARA/GESARA system that Trump wants to bring us to sounds like a dream come true to someone like me who's always saw the whole system as hopelessly rigged. The waiting is killing meee.