ever since i was young i had this unexplained feeling whenever i went to certain water parks. i first felt the feeling when i saw a multi lever tower with multiple buckets on top. and it had water in them and it would drop on everyone from time to time. out of all water attractions this one stood out to me. it made me feel strange. later on i got this feeling again in another water park and it had the same attraction there only this time the whole water park was in a building. the towers with the water buckets and the roofs being on top of them made this feeling even stronger.

fast forward to today and this feeling is a little more understood. to me seeing the buckets and seeing the roof made me feel like i was in the service room where it doesn't look pretty. its just pipes everywhere and generators. you know that feeling when you see a live show and then you go back stage and see all the pipes? and wiring? that feeling of "seeing whats behind the curtain" type of thing.

i had this feeling for a while now and when i came across the Truman show a while back it was like a light bulb inside my head. seeing panels come off from the sky was a scary image to me but it perfectly described how i felt about this world. i don't think the earth is flat but i do think we are on some sort of disk controlled by a massive machine that not only projects what we see but also surrounds it. god just might be a galactic ruler and we might just be an experiment. like literally . as if we were ants in a ant farm. i will continue to believe in god because good is always better than evil but the truth of the world might be far crazier than we think.