Hello fellow patriots!
I know this has been hard for all of us, but these past few weeks have been torture. Little background on me so you understand my current predicament.
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32 year old, that only realized career wasn't everything a few years ago, working my way up the corporate ladder, and realized I wanted a family
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98% of the staff at my company are Liberals (my fault, I picked a Liberal Industry) so I've spent the past 5 years listening to my staff spew nonsense, and think I'm crazy
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Since my promotion, I have been asked to refrain from talking about Covid and masks with employees, they think I am crazy
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I've recently come to terms with the fact that I am an addict (adderall, alcohol, nicotine, gambling, caffeine, eating problems…I'm a mess)
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My uncle got the 2nd Pfizer vaccine in April, died 2 days later of a heart attack, and my fam thought I was crazy when I told them he died from the vaccine, and they proceeded to get the vaccine
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I had a break down, broke up with my boyfriend of 8 years, quit drinking, and moved in with my aunt
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Work has been overwhelmed this summer with everyone traveling, and the minimum wage increase has made it impossible to keep staff
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I've been keeping up hope, but last week was rough. Life has been throwing everything at me to try to make me cave, and I had a breakdown, and considered quitting my job
**Present Time:
My boss pulled me into a meeting and said my company would pay for me to go to Rehab for a month.
-30 Days to unplug sounds magical, but will it get me on a crazy list?
-I said I wouldn't do vax or masks or bloodwork, but am I walking into a cell?
-Would this be me giving up? I can get sober myself, this just seems much easier…
-We all know something is happening, I've made it this far, would this be tapping out right when things start getting good?
-Should I just go for the free vaca and interesting people?
I have no idea what to do so any and all advice is appreciated!**
P.S. Thank you all! I don't post much, but I read constantly. This place has gotten me through some dark times, and it gave me comfort to know I wasn't going through this alone! WWG1WGA
You're so right when you say " We have the weight of the world on us" it so seems that way and it seems to be getting heavier day by day. Sometimes I feel like when my mom passed away. Feb 2016 For like a year, I would see other people going on about their lives, laughing, enjoying, talking like they had no idea that my heart was broken ,that I lost the one thing that connected me to this place. How do they not see ,how dare them be so normal, so happy!! Finally slowly that feeling faded over the next couple of years. In 2020, when I started to see what was really going on in this country/world I felt like the days before she died. Now I feel like I did when she died.. I have that broken heart again, that loss, and I look around and I see these people living in oblivion and seemingly not a care in the world. And again , I say to myself Don't they know? Don't they see? How could they not see that what's going on?? I so feel like I am in mourning of the biggest lose in my life again and I need can't fix it , but I can't. Thank God for this group and The wins!!