I am recovering at home on oxygen assisted to help build my lungs. I am grateful I am still here for my children and grandchildren. Not saying this for sympathy, but I have some friends on here and want them to know why I disappeared for so long.

I am not angry or sad, I am a Christian and I have been working thought this with God and some close friends and I am really positive about the future. I know that God has our days numbered down to our last second on earth so no matter trying to 'make' him still be here would ot change at all, not one second more. Only God know our time and hour but I am assured by the fact He does. Probably lots of angry people coming to the 'Celebration of his life' at my church (love that spin instead of being so dark) because we refused to take just 2 jabs as they put it. But I am strong and will never let them push me around. Anyway all, thanks for those of you who did give great advice. I would love Anne99 to contact me but do not seem to be able to get her she is in NZ I think.

Thanks again Trisha - Job 14:5 - A person’s days are determined; you have decreed the number of his months and have set limits he cannot exceed.