Don't be mad at God. Be mad at the cowards charged with saving lives who did nothing out of fear of losing their jobs. Better yet, be mad at the enemy of this world, filling it with the lies that lead them astray. God does not change. We do. Our circumstances do.

I can tell you that despite the horror and pain, God is doing something amazing with it, but realistically, you may never know what that is. That makes it hard, but you can trust in faith. It is easy to trust God when things are well, but hard when things are not. That is why we were able to see Job's character only through what he endured.

I cannot relate to your experience, honestly. My heart breaks for you though. I CAN related to the "Peace that surpasses understanding," however. At the darkest times in my life, honest faith and prayer to God in spite of the situation resulted in a peace in my soul I could not explain. I learned this week that the author of the hymn "It is Well with My Soul" wrote it after his family died and his church burned to the ground.

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. -- Philippians 4:6-7

I am sorry for your loss. My spirit mourns with you, and I pray the Lord will give you the peace of God which surpasses all understanding, that you may say that it is well with your soul.