Totally off the wall here but bare with me, I take this as a sign now. Ran to my church having a massive panic attack over this mess back before Christmas. Some of the ladies prayed over me but I couldn't shake it. A cat just like the one in the picture appeared at the front door and when i went to sut on the steps, it jumped in my lap and it calmed me down. Since then that little Russian cat (I call him Smokey) waits at that church to follow me and my husband around. I think once we have out own home, we will adopt our little Russian friend