I am a single father of two sons who live with me. I love them and try to provide the best for them in life.
We are Christian and all that and attend church when we can; altho they go with their mom on weekends.
Lately i have become incredibly depressed by everything going on. I was mostly unaffected by Covid, I have prepped a large stash of stuff just in case, and for the most part my life isnt too objectively bad.
Dating has been hard and i am beginning to despair of ever finding a partner in this area and with the morass of online dating sites being the suckholes that they are.
Ironically being depressed and trying to date isnt the best combo so im just spiraling down on the regular.
I have prayed to God to send me someone who he intends for me, but thus far no luck.
I feel like theres nothing left for me in life. Nothing i want or need. I am hanging in there for my sons and my parents but you can only live for someone else for so long, and i feel my time is growing short.
Any advice to cheer me up? At 43 i have too far left to walk to do it alone but feel as though ive walked too far already to make finding someone a possibility.
And with all the vaxxing im not keen on meeting someone whos going to randomly sudden death on me, so im there at the viewing saying "im just thankful for the 6 great months we had together."
Ive lived and worked with pain and i just dont want any more, and God knows what ive been through...
My beautiful daughter is 41. She refuses to vax or go along with any of the crap the government throws at us. She is solidly conservative is 41 this year and looks 25! She broke up with her boyfriend because he was too “soy boy” at 43. She is fiercely independent, hardworking, truthful to a fault, loyal as anyone I have ever known, extremely kindhearted, giving, loving and has an extremely wicked sense of humor. Has RA, lupus, fibromyalgia, panic attacks and you would never know it talking to her. I look at her and wish I could have been her in my youth. She has felt the same as you in despairing of ever finding an honest, hardworking, loyal, intelligent, conservative, fun loving MAN! She is content being alone (yes, she does have 2 cats but they are super cool!) and lives everyday joyfully and content. She always wanted kids but has figured the time has come and gone but she would have made a great mother. She says her life and friends, both online and in person are enough as she would rather live alone being happy and living her life for herself than feeling sad that she is not “with someone”. She is an inspiration and I wish more women were like her who are not concerned with having a boyfriend but having a rich, happy, contented life. She says if her “love “ doesn’t find her til she’s 65 then that will be fine. Sometimes “great happenings” just take a little while to happen. I wish you luck on your search for a partner but my partner showed up when I was a divorced mother of 3 at the age of 35. We will be celebrating 33 yrs together in June. God knows what he is doing!❤️❤️❤️❤️
She sounds cool. I'm about to do a Stalin-style purge of my online friends because most aren't worth a damn and are just high school acquaintances.
My life is pretty full but again sharing is fun and it'd be nice to have a pair of hands to wash the dishes when I cook and things like that. And to talk to lol.