I write this today, because I know I'm not alone in this and others might be feeling the same way as me.

We are going through hard times now. I believe when Q said "The end is not for all of us" I think I know what he was referring. I have a 5 months old girl named Cataleya and we call her Cat or Cathy. I want her to do well, but she wouldn't do well without both of her parents, because I know my husband would not do well alone and will never forgive me if I let my intrusive thoughts win.

I have 3 life insurances that would help my husband and baby girl to do well in these hard times, however, I'm also looking for reasons to keep fighting even if I have to be hungry.

Although, I'm a mental health professional, I'm not doing well myself. I have intrusive thought every day and I fighting them as much as possible. If you are reading this, you are not the only one who feels this way, I can make up excuses and say "ooh, I feel like this because PPSD (Post-partum Stress Disorder), but others genuinely are feeling lost, dejected, and hopeless.

I share this today, because I want to keep fighting for our future generations and our country together and check of those who says "I'm fine".