Incredible milestone to reach! I love that so many share their struggles with various things on this board. Personally I've never really talked to anybody about my own, not even on other anonymous forums. Even here, I came to read posts every day for over a year before I ever created an account. I've been sober from alcohol for 7-8 years now. I started dating my now husband around that time who drank very rarely. I sort of lost the desire to drink once I put together that literally every argument/fight we had was because I was drunk and thinking incoherently. One of the best things about not drinking IMO is waking up NOT hungover. I pray for success for any of you striving for sobriety. Just the thought of alcohol makes me feel exhausted, because now I'm struggling with a completely different thing: After I had kids (last child 5 years ago) I lost my appetite for food. I've basically lived on diet coke and breakfast cereal, other carbs. I've had insomnia equally as long, and subsequently get through each day with chronic caffeine/stimulant use. I've developed an array of autoimmune issues and gained like 25 lbs in the last year, but I eat very little. All the stuff I should be eating is repulsive to me.. meat/eggs/etc. I stay feeling exhausted to the point I just don't sit down during the day because I will fall asleep. When it's time to sleep, I can't and don't because it's the only time I have any energy to function and get shit done. Currently impatiently waiting on my order of "adrenal desiccated" to arrive. Anyone here tried that? I never knew anything about adrenals until recently, and I'm sure that mine are fossilized by now. I'm hoping it will give me enough relief that I can stop the cycle of cause and effect-- at least long enough that I can make the changes I need to make. At this point, I'm feeling very discouraged.