I want to be more brave about my beliefs, and more open. Why are the left allowed to be so loud about what they believe but if a conservative or even just someone with different beliefs disagrees, you face consequences with the Karen's? I live in a blue area UGH, trying to move, i am a hairstylist. I work in a salon with mostly liberals from what I've gathered. I can't STAND sitting around listening to the pc bs they spew. I wouldn't actively engage in conversations about politics because it does no good and won't change their mind. HOWEVER. I am finding it dreadful to take myself to work anymore because 99% of my clients are liberals and loud about it. For some reason they assume I'm liberal as well. I don't necessarily want to talk politics with my clients but I am so sick of working on liberals. I love what I do but it's killing my passion to work on people I can't stand and our morals don't align.

Recently a liberal coworker suggested changing mens and womens cuts to long short or medium hair cuts 🙄 she probably hates me because I still call my "clipper cuts" mens cuts, and I always will. And I absolutely refuse to use anyones pronouns especially if I can tell they're a tranny. I want to refuse service to them truthfully. I know this would get me fired even though if someone refused service To a conservative being so blunt they would probably be rewarded. And I know being more open about my beliefs will isolate me and probably push me out of the salon eventually. It actually already happened, and I was 7 months pregnant when she fired me 🙂

Really I'm just ranting because I feel like the shit is so overwhelming and I can't stand living in this area but the world is so expensive right now and I can't afford yo get to a red area yet, I know once I can move and work on likeminded people or not loudmouth liberals who push their byllshit on everyone my passion will come back. But man I will see names on my books and want to just call in because I know who that person is, and just trying to make small talk is daunting when I know how opposite we are.

The tranny flags and rainbow shit and drag queens are all just really getting to me. I'm sick of this being shoved down my throat and I don't want to conform I don't want to abide by these made up rules, but since I work with the public and live in an extremely blue area, I just feel like I'm compromising my beliefs and my spirit is suffering.

I'm so sorry for this word vomit but it's hard holding this shit in every day and doing my best to support my family and trying to paint a happy face but knowing I just don't fit in and don't want to fit in with these people let alone touch them and work on their bodies and share energy with them for at least 30 minutes!

Another thing that's been weighing on me lately I have literally like 3 friends in this town and in high school had ONE. I keep seeing people I went to school with that I remember trying to fit in with and they were such fucking weirdos that I never understood why I couldn't make friends with all these different groups and what was wrong with ME, but seeing these people now realizing they're extreme lefties, it makes sense. And I remember being in high school and someone making fun of me because I didn't believe in abortions or something? I don't know how they knew that because I never talked about that but it's just all clicking now as a 30 year old woman, why I never fit in anywhere in this town and how much happier and safer I would feel in a red area. If anyone has read all of this thank you, my personal diary post of the day that nobody cares about but I needed yo get it off my chest!

One day when they are screaming about being tranny and proud I want to scream about how there's only TWO GENDERS and not fear losing my job.