I started taking them as soon as I got them. I feel relieved, sadly. I can’t help but feel relieved, guilty and also defeated because I let big pharma take hold of my mental health. It feels bad man. I want to taper off of them asap but I don’t know what I can replace my antidepressants with and I am terrified to have an episode again. Before I was medicated I was having episodes daily. They calmed down after I got an SSRI. 5 days without them and I had an episode and it was by far the worst breakdown I’ve had. I stressed my boyfriend out to the max because he was the one trying to calm me down. Feels really bad man.