When I look around me NPCs are doing better than me. Even though I believe I was never fully NPC in the past.
You would think being aware about what’s going on in the world, you would have a sense of freedom.
I also got hit really hard by the covid fiasco mentally. Just by seeing all those NPC around me championing all the restrictions, made me feel very lonely for a while. Because my mind was and is not the same as theirs. If I would speak out what’s in my mind I probably wouldn’t have any friends surrounding me anymore.
I’m not being myself, I’m being fake, so that the NPCs would accept me. The fake me is the person that they like about me and want hang around with.
I totally lost all joy in life, my addictions became heavier over the last two years, the last months I’m doing better to quit them.
But being sober all the time brings back all those bad feelings. I’m not even able to focus on loving someone. My friends think I’m low energy. But the addictions kept me that way.
And the question “What am I even doing here on this planet” start roaming in my head again.
When I have good times, I get upset that some others don’t. Do I even have the right to pray to God for more and more, while others are begging for food and are sleeping on the streets.
Does God even care about me? If he does, than does he cares about the others as well?
Life just seems not fair for the majority people on earth.
Those feelings hold me back to advance my own life. While dreaming about all those cool stuff you can do on this earth.
Just being aware of so many things made me very destructive towards myself.
Is there someone who can relate? Were you able to get your lust for life back?
I feel you fellow patriot. Last summer I was worried AF I was gonna have to take a jab or lose my job. Thankfully it never became something I needed to stress about. I was real down last summer. Over the past couple of years since this covid nonsense took over nearly all the people around me I'd like to share some of my experience in dealing with NPCs.
Be secure in yourself. A lot of people will tell you to "be confident" as general advice. I don't exactly agree with that notion. It's too simple. You need to be secure in yourself -- your opinions, your beliefs. You are allowed to have an opinion and if voicing your opinion loses you friends then they weren't frens and it was meant to be because God.
This is spiritual warfare. Oh what times we live in, right? You, my fren, are clearly closer to God than these NPCs are. They are not aware of the magnitude of what is going on. You are. This does not mean you are better. It does not mean they are worse. God is taking you through troubled waters because your enemies can't swim. You know something THEY do not.
God causes suffering to build character. You were MEANT for this fight in this war. Think of all your trials and tribulations in your life. Think of the worst feelings you've ever felt -- your failures, your fuck ups, what stressed you, and take that and realize it was MEANT to be. It was MEANT to teach you something. To build your character. To shape and mold you into being a leader for your people.
This and number 1 were personally my greatest struggles throughout this. Please act with compassion. It ties into number 1 because I would advise compassionately voicing your opinions. You're not trying to fight or argue. It's more or less you standing your ground and I encourage you to do so. Act with compassion. Avoid emotional flairs. Keep it neutral. You know... NBD as the kids say. Ultimately you will garner more respect and value, and maybe even attract those with different opinions than you. I will end this point with two sections of the Bible I found relevant:
Luke 23:34
Revelation 22:11
You were meant for this. Godspeed.
Staying in touch with God is what gives me strength!