Others are doing better than me, but I don't envy them. I understand the value of material wealth and the opportunities it provides to help your fellow man. We can see wealth being slung around to both cause and fight corruption at the highest levels. Its all about the money, or that is what it seems sometimes.

However, I will not trade sobriety and the ability to think clearly for myself just to make things easier, even if it makes my situation worse. Facing and learning to endure pain, both physical and emotional, makes it easier to deal with what is going on. There are people who cry at a pin prick and there are those that can endure tremendous pain and still walk forward.

There is this gap where we know that the life presented to us was a sham, yet we don't know enough about what's really going on to move forward. Some people do get paralyzed by the lack of information and not knowing what to do. While I myself do what I can to make people aware of what is going on, I have not advanced my own standing in this fake world with fake money and fake law and order.

I do have a very good imagination. I can keep myself entertained and occupied without engaging in what people would mostly consider standard entertainment. I have no interest in sports, alcohol, movies and the like so I don't feel bad when I find out how sleazy everything is behind the scenes.

In terms of treating life as a game, all these hardships that come at the door, I step back away from my self, leaving emotions and other things behind so I can look at it as something like:

"Oh, this is what I have to deal with next, huh? Let's see how we can get past it."

That lets me identify what emotions are affecting me and what might be causing it, both external and internal. Of course there is that initial wave of emotion be it anger, annoyance, uncertainty, envy, jealousy or whatever it may be. At this point, I understand that I am not my mind and I am not my emotions. My mind does things on its own and if I don't pause and step back to analyze why I am feeling or thinking a certain way, then I am prone to making a bad decision.

It's almost second nature now for me to be wary of my own emotions and thoughts, because while they are part of who I am, they do not represent me as whole.

The people who manipulated humanity for centuries already know how the human mind works for the general population. That is why they are able to blindside, lie to, direct and manipulate people on such a large scale. Ever since I was aware of that, I knew that there is a different part of me that could analyze whatever I initially feel about something.

The first or sometimes even second or third wave of emotions can often be broken down within reason, causes identified, consequences analyzed, benefits assessed by my inner self. It's a part of me that I hope is more or less not affected by strong emotions and can analyze an internal state more clearly. It's not perfect, but it has prevented me from acting irrationally, especially when dealing with other people and the events that is happening around us.

In a nutshell, for those who feel troubled, the world is being gaslit 24/7 and has been for awhile now. That displaces people's perception of things and brings out emotions that are usually hard to deal with due to uncertainty.

TL;DR

There can be a part of you that can step back from all the noise, the emotions, the distractions and responsibilities that can critically analyze you and your current state. It can be possible to free yourself from the cage of your own mind to get a new perspective and to make sense of all the emotions that are flung your way. I guess the first step is to be able to go outside of yourself, see yourself for what you really are and be able to say, "So, this is me. I'm a mess. How do I fix me?"

That was rambly and I don't know if it helps at all or if it even made sense, but good luck to you anyway! Even if it's not helpful, then at least know that I cared enough about your plight to share my thoughts and risk looking stupid on the internet to try and help you. x)