What does everyone think the truth is that will be revealed? As a child I always questioned my sunday school and CCD classes. Somethings did not sit well with me. I believed in God and I still do, but I will admit I have strayed from my faith at times in my life . My wife brought me back full circle to my faith, but I still have questions and many issues with church and organized religions in general; although I love the messages received during mass. I believe that many of the messages and parables we learn are based on some sort of truth, but much is kept from us, and manipulated. As a child I thought that most religions were a fraud and the knowledge of the One True God had been hidden from us. This is still my belief today. I'm not sure faith and believing in God is enough though. I know many who think it is. I also know many who believe that God left us. God has not forsaken us, but it is my belief we must prove our worthy, through free will, in order to pass through the gates of heaven. But how is this done? I hope that this is part of the Great Awakening.

My thoughts are that this is a prison planet we are inmates until the time we can make the proper choices to ascend and prove ourselves worthy. That free will is our blessing and also our curse. I have tried to live a good life, but by what metric is that measured by? I know by the life I've lived, I'm not worthy of ascending. I'm not sure any of us truly know the requirements. I'm no biblical scholar, although I try and read up on the subject in looking for answers to questions I've had for my almost 50 years in this prison. That longing for answers have lead me to places much like these boards. Are answers in the biblical teachings; The 10 Commandments?. Jesus changed the rules of the Old Testament (but did he really?), but what happened to the souls of those who didn't live up to those standards, or those before Moses when the were given to Abraham Genesis 26:5: “Abraham obeyed My voice and kept My charge, My commandments, My statutes, and My laws.” If those are the requirements, How strict are they? If very, than I have failed miserably.

The first one: I am the Lord thy God! Thou shalt have no other Gods but me! I believe that and I have faith that Jesus is the Son of God and is God. I also think that man has manipulated what we truly know about Jesus. Is it a sin to not have faith in what man has imparted as the knowledge about God?

Second: Thou shalt not take the Name of the Lord thy God in vain! I have failed miserably at this. The cultural normalization of saying "JC" after becoming mad or frustrated about something crept into my vocabulary. As I have aged the frequency of use has waned and I continue to correct myself. I have taken the Lord's name in vain out of anger of losing my young wife to a 5 year battle of breast cancer, slowly watching as man's medicine ripped her body apart and the cancer taking her from us too soon; in our selfish belief at least. Will God forgive such transgressions? During her battle, she never lost her faith. If I'm being honest, at times I strayed but seeing her faith only raised my own. He has blessed me since then with a wonderful life, but I know I'm still not worthy.

Third: Thou shalt keep the Sabbath Day Holy. Society for the most part ruined that one, as I have too.

Fourth: Thou shalt honor father and mother! I've done well with this one, but have made mistakes most make due to immaturity.

Fifth: Thou shalt not kill! To this day I'm good with this one. But many elite should fear me if I get a terminal illness, or harms children. God may be able to forgive all sins, but there are some I admit I am incapable of and that sin will get the better of me.

Sixth: Thou shalt not commit adultery! I remained true to my wife but early in our relationship I was corrupted by the temptation of porn. With my maturation I began to see the true evils of it and it's design to break down the foundation of family, and prey on the weak.

Seventh: Thou shall not steal. Younger days I would be guilty of little things, but depending on the severity of what is considered stealing then I have failed miserably. Napster corrupted me ;)

Eighth: Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbor! I have been pretty true to this one as well, but am guilty of mud slinging once I have been attacked.

Ninth: Do not let thyself lust after thy neighbor’s wife! My neighbors wives are all liberal, so I'm good there.

Tenth: Thou shalt not covet thy neighbor’s house, nor his farm, nor his cattle, nor anything that is his! I feel I've been pretty good with this one. I've always been content with what I have and what I have earned myself. I can't say I've been really jealous of what others have obtained. Some people might call it a lack of ambition, but I call it contentment.

Are good deeds enough to cancel out transgressions? Is belief enough no matter how horrible the sin? Are we playing a game where those in earthly power are hiding the true rules from us? Are we doomed to repeat the same mistakes in an endless loop, teaching our children, to make the same mistakes? I know it's a bit deep and endless rambling, but these are things I think about when the big reveal is proposed. I believe that we have been tricked into thinking that faith and belief is enough. God Bless.