I will try to 'abbreviate' it :)

I am not new here. I have been banned before for dooming and for doubting. If admitting that results in another ban, so be it. I only wish to speak the truth and not lie.

I was previously not a 'believer' in the sense that many here are/were.

I did however have 'faith' in God through a direct experience. For a very long time, I thought I was 'above' religious interpretation. I saw it as 'metaphor' and looked down, however compassionately I believed it be, on those that took religious teachings to be 'literal'. I was misguided.

I also followed 'Q' and saw it as real in a sense, but more of teaching device created by a team of people, without 'anything else' going on. - I believe I was wrong.

With the attempted assassination of President Trump, all that has changed

I believe we witnessed a genuine miracle. 'Miracles' didn't happen to jive with what I thought possible about the laws of nature, God etc.

I began to question deeply and suffer immense existential terror. Panic attack upon panic attack, convinced I was about to die. I can't really put it into words, suffice to say it was really scary and horrifying. Something like 'Hell'

I could write a thousands of words for this section, it's really really hard to put it into words and I'm not very good at it. I'm imperfect, quite frankly I'm terrible and fail in many ways, as we all do, but truly I'm terrible, so I'm not going to try unless people really want to hear it and I can find the words somehow to do it. So I'll just skip this bit. I suffered greatly and I called upon anything, anyone, to bear this suffering and ease my burden. That's about as far as I can really go toward explaining it for now

From this great suffering I was filled, for the first time, with a sense of compassion. This suffering is the suffering that that all beings suffer and for the first time I felt true compassion. This is really the point I want to get at. This is something I have never experienced before. I 'thought' that I understood it, but I hadn't experienced it directly

my goodness how to even tie this together... Everything kind of flows from experiencing this infinite compassion/mercy/love/light

Q is real. It is time travel, essentially, and there is indeed a team of 'patriots' or 'white hats' with access to a machine or some device that receives data or information from a future point. Very complicated stuff, I believe I have found the mechanism by which this is possible. I'm happy to explain but it's very 'out there' stuff

For a long time, until this recent experience, I was 'resistant' toward the message and teachings of Jesus Christ as lord and saviour. As I said, I thought I was 'above it' and didn't 'need' this teaching to have my personal connection to God.

All that has changed

If you wish to continue reading, please know that my words are just words or metaphor. They are shaped by the framework of my experience and language and are according to my limited ability to express it with the language I am able

Jesus was an awakened being. He is of the 'father' or god, and he came to end the 'suffering' or 'sin' of other beings. He sacrificed his life out of 'love' or 'infinite compassion/mercy' so that all who call upon his name and follow his way may be 'saved' and have eternal life in 'heaven'.

His vow was to awaken all beings and rid them of suffering

I have made the same vow, as we are all called to make it

It is not through coercion or threat of judgement, but motivated by great compassion

I am not Jesus. I am not even a 'good' person. I have failed and will continue to fail and be imperfect.

What I can do, is to follow the 'way' or 'path'

It is like this,

Illuminated by the 'True light', infinite radiating compassion/mercy/love/light/peach/truth

shining forth, effortlessly luminous, from the hearts of an infinite number of other beings walking the path, motivated by compassion, etc

my words are poor and my explanation sucks. Jesus said it better

and that's enough, more than enough

the skilfulness of his teaching is unsurpassed amongst us

So I will shut up

God bless you :)

I'm happy to extrapolate further about Q if you would like and perhaps other elements but essential yes, 'Jesus saves' and I no longer walk with doubt.