Yeah it was a double whammy in my head, everyone was telling me my mind wasn't working correctly because of the drugs so it was easy to dismiss my research. You know... "when you get off drugs you won't have these delusions of paranoia, if you clean yourself up you'll see with a clearer head how stupid you sounded" Honestly even on drugs I was the only one with clarity, but believe me Meth can do some strange shit to your head, yes it does cause psychosis after being up for days. Any stimulant type drug will do that, so sometimes I would doubt myself and say "maybe this is all bullshit in my head" thing was though everything, all the evidence was still there in my moments of abstinence and clarity. Recovery is a tough row to hoe, I don't wish addiction on anyone, your life is never the same, constant vigilance to keep away from the triggers, keep your mind occupied, and never let your hands be idle.

Yeah it was a double whammy in my head, everyone was telling me my mind wasn't working correctly because of the drugs so it was easy to dismiss my research. You know... "when you get of drugs you won't have these delusions of paranoia, if you clean yourself up you'll see with a clearer head how stupid you sounded" Honestly even on drugs I was the only one with clarity, but believe me Meth can do some strange shit to your head, yes it does cause psychosis after being up for days. Any stimulant type drug will do that, so sometimes I would doubt myself and say "maybe this is all bullshit in my head" thing was though everything, all the evidence was still there in my moments of abstinence and clarity. Recovery is a tough row to hoe, I don't wish addiction on anyone, your life is never the same, constant vigilance to keep away from the triggers, keep your mind occupied, and never let your hands be idle.