I was restless and lot of chaos was in my spirit over this whole ordeal. I felt I was losing grip on reality. I was reading yet another document, only this one was about Israel and it's complicity in 9/11. Immediately everything went completely silent in my head and these words were spoken "don't trust man's plan, trust Mine". Immediately after this I prayed a prayer from the deepest part of me. Then a unbelievable peace came over me. Like I knew I'm ok and that He's gonna see me through this. A couple nights later I had a vivid dream. I'm standing in a sea of people as far as I could see. Way down in front of them all was what appeared to be a man talking to them. I couldn't hear what he was saying. All of a sudden the crowd starts separating for him. He was coming up the middle of the crowd. I noticed he was headed in my direction. So as he got extremely close to me I turned away and didn't want to be seen because of my shame. I heard my name called out, like inside my head. When I turned to him I had tears streaming down my face, I knew I wasn't worthy to be in His presence. I immediately kneeled before him and he placed his hand on my head. That sums it up pretty much. But both experiences were profound and humbling. Since then I've shown no interest in earthly things. Like all of my natural desires have been miraculously removed from me. It's truly a miracle the spirit has placed on me. Idk I'm still in awe over it all.

I was restless and lot of chaos was in my spirit over this whole ordeal. I felt I was losing grip on reality. I was reading yet another document, only this one was about Israel and it's complicity in 9/11. Immediately everything went completely silent in my head and these words were spoken "don't trust man's plan, trust Mine". Immediately in the this unbelievable peace came over me. Like I knew I'm ok and that He's gonna see me through this. A couple nights later I had a vivid dream. I'm standing in a sea of people as far as I could see. Way down in front of them all was what appeared to be a man talking to them. I couldn't hear what he was saying. All of a sudden the crowd starts separating for him. He was coming up the middle of the crowd. I noticed he was headed in my direction. So as he got extremely close to me I turned away and didn't want to be seen because of my shame. I heard my name called out, like inside my head. When I turned to him I had tears streaming down my face, I knew I wasn't worthy to be in His presence. I immediately kneeled before him and he placed his hand on my head. That sums it up pretty much. But both experiences were profound and humbling. Since then I've shown no interest in earthly things. Like all of my natural desires have been miraculously removed from me. It's truly a miracle the spirit has placed on me. Idk I'm still in awe over it all.