Learning "the truth" has only made my life worse. I'm in a bad place right now. My friends and family can't stand me. My wife hates me. I can't see things the same anymore. I hope one way or the other this charade ends soon.

Edit: You guys are awesome! Thank you all for your kind words and support. It's been hard learning so much and having no one in person to discuss the info with. I'm going to have to bite my tongue for now and remain the "crazy conspiracy theorist" among the people I know. I hope it all comes to light and I can help my friends and family understand better. Until then, thank you all for being so supportive and I will continue the discussion here and it's time I put more effort in understanding and trusting God and his plan.

Learning "the truth" has only made my life worse. I'm in a bad place right now. My friends and family can't stand me. My wife hates me. I can't see things the same anymore. I hope one way or the other this charade ends soon.