"I just realised she’s just as brainwashed as the rest. She’s a nurse, and has been blind enough that she took the jab. I just proposed to her but right now is the most alone I’ve felt."

This is not good and it sounds like you two aren't equally yolked. Her taking the jab means she is now a spike protein factory. Having children is now a huge red flag. The complications for the health of the newborn are exponential. You have your work cut out for you. Courtship is to determine one's compatibility. If you go into a relationship when there already is a divide in belief and personality, don't expect it to disappear. It tends to fester and get worse. This is one reason why divorce is 50 percent or better.

You're not alone. There are plenty of people like us here at this site. With my prayers, I hope everything works out for you.

"I just realised she’s just as brainwashed as the rest. She’s a nurse, and has been blind enough that she took the jab. I just proposed to her but right now is the most alone I’ve felt."

This is not good and it sounds like you two aren't equally yolked. Her taking the jab means she is now a spike protein factory. Having children is now a huge red flag. The complications for the health of the newborn are exponential. You have your work cut out for you. Courtship is to determine one's compatibility. If you go into a relationship when there already is a divide in belief and personality, don't expect it to disappear. It tends to fester and get worse. This is one reason why divorce is 50 percent or better.