Thank you for the kind words, my friend. I appreciate it.

I've been really educating myself on the CTE since we were in Calgary - I started seeing some stuff back then. It's a very sad outcome, really. It's progressive, can't be stopped / quelled and ends up with basically developing dementia.

You are right, the help she needs in the end, won't help her. It's sad and scary watching someone you love deteriorate right in front of you, all the while, somehow completely blind to what's happening right in front of them. I do know that in the end.... she most likely will end up in a care facility.

I'm too good of a person. I can't just do nothing. I can't just "ok, fuck you, I don't care" after 26 years. It's been me and her against the world this whole time... now I'm part of that world she's fighting against.

I see someone soak themselves in gasoline and reach for the matches... I can't just stand there. When the person though has zero sense of self accountability or responsibility, you unfortunately have to watch them burn.

Her mom said something to me that gave me a lot of closure and sense of acceptance. When she mentioned the 'closing the door', it confirmed what I've been seeing for years. It confirmed for me, this isn't my fault, I've done everything I can do, as her mom as over the years. I have to let go of what I THOUGHT she was, and finally accept what I've known all along.

Thank you for the kind words, my friend. I appreciate it.

I've been really educating myself on the CTE since we were in Calgary - I started seeing some stuff back then. It's a very sad outcome, really. It's progressive, can't be stopped / quelled and ends up with basically developing dementia.

You are right, the help she needs in the end, won't help her. It's sad and scary watching someone you love deteriorate right in front of you, all the while, somehow completely blind to what's happening right in front of them. I do know that in the end.... she most likely will end up in a care facility.

I'm too good of a person. I can't just do nothing. I see someone soak themselves in gasoline and reach for the matches... I can't just stand there. When the person though has zero sense of self accountability or responsibility, you unfortunately have to watch them burn.

Her mom said something to me that gave me a lot of closure and sense of acceptance. When she mentioned the 'closing the door', it confirmed what I've been seeing for years. It confirmed for me, this isn't my fault, I've done everything I can do, as her mom as over the years. I have to let go of what I THOUGHT she was, and finally accept what I've known all along.