I feel I have shifted my external validation to God, He is the only one I care to please and when I view the world as a place that is consumed with the thought of ruining my presence with God, I question all things before me and look to him and his word for guidance. But I know atheists who are awake and I know devout Christians who have been vaccinated. In other words, I don't know the answer, but the thought of why Im "different" or "awake" and others I know are not, really baffles me on a psychological level. I'm thankful for whatever it is that has set me apart but it would be nice to know what it truly was to better break the conditioning of others.

I feel I have shifted my external validation to God, He is the only one I care to please and when I view the world as a place that is consumed with the thought of ruining my presence with God, I question all things before me and look to him and his word for guidance. But I know atheists who are awake and I know devout Christians who have been vaccinated. In other words, I don't know the answer, but the thought of why Im "different" or "awake" and others I know are not really baffles me on a psychological level. I'm thankful for whatever it is that has set me apart but it would be nice to know what it truly was to better break the conditioning of others.