That is a part of what they are trying keep from us.
Can anyone that reads this help me pray, we don't need to be together to do so, we already are. We can make it happen and Mungfachee, will be healed if we believe.

Crying is good for us I sometimes put on funny old movies or something to break the dam so I can cry. You release endorphins when you cry.
I lost my 14 year old niece to a murmur. It devastated everyone for years, until we realized she was really happy, dancing around the bathroom with her cousin. She just dropped dead. No pain or suffering anymore, she was a gift that her brothers and sisters treat like hell. Her youngest brother even told her he wished she would die and aways had. I took a long time to get the demons to leave him alone. They had to send him home from school because his seeing the demons was disrupting class. Her mother has since found God and even she is thankful her daughter was saved from more pain from her own family. Death is just losing your old, damaged body, you still exist. And God loves you! Don't let anyone tell you otherwise, including bad spirits, The first prayer in your case might be to help you get rid of any fear, evil loves your fear. That is why we see so much fear porning on the news. Fear, might be what is keeping you from receiving your healing, Praying medic can help you get what has been given to you. He can better explain why it is you blocking the gift.
Anyways I have to move on now and teak a break, but I even wrote you down on my list of prayers so I can't forget. You are not alone, even if it sometimes feels that way. God allowed my family to come back to comfort me and they are here with my Angel, watching over me.
Remember God did not leave when Jesus did, and Jesus Will be back, he might already be here. He did warn of false profits, and part of my study is looking to see if he said he would be sending profits to help. So far nothing, I am testing revaluations and so far, I am coming to believe that it is just more Fake News. Some of revelation contradicts what Jesus told us through his apostles. Much love to you!

That is a part of what they are trying keep from us.
Can anyone that reads this help me pray, we don't need to be together to do so, we already are. We can make it happen and Mungfachee, will be healed if we believe.

Crying is good for us I sometimes put on funny old movies or something to break the dam so I can cry. You release endorphins when you cry.
I lost my 14 year old niece to a murmur. It devastated everyone for years, until we realized she was really happy, dancing around the bathroom with her cousin. She just dropped dead. No pain or suffering anymore, she was a gift that her brothers and sisters treat like hell. Her youngest brother even told her he wished she would die and aways had. I took a long time to get the demons to leave him alone. He had to send him home from school because his seeing the demons was disrupting class. Her mother has since found God and even she is thankful her daughter was saved from more pain from her own family. Death is just losing your old, damaged body, you still exist. And God loves you! Don't let anyone tell you otherwise, including bad spirits, The first prayer in your case might be to help you get rid of any fear, evil loves your fear. That is why we see so much fear porning on the news.