I've struggled with mental illness since my early 20s. I'm now 33. When lockdowns started in 2020, I was sent over the edge and had a break with reality. The thoughts I was having were WILD. I was certain civil war was brewing between red and blue. I thought I was being sex trafficked and recorded without my knowledge. It got as bad as me thinking I was going to birth both Jesus and the devil. The following months after hospitalizations were very hard to pick up the pieces when the world is still going to shit. There was so much hopium on this site at the time, it felt (and still feels) like a hopeful place populated by kind and extremely smart people here kept me inspired that the world can be helped.

Anyone else here have a literal break from reality during their great awakening? Think I'm a whimp?

Edit: thank you so much, frens

I've struggled with mental illness since my early 20s. I'm now 33. When lockdowns started in 2020, I was sent over the edge and had a break with reality. The thoughts I was having were WILD. I was certain civil war was brewing between red and blue. I thought I was being sex trafficked and recorded without my knowledge. It got as bad as me thinking I was going to birth both Jesus and the devil. The following months after hospitalizations were very hard to pick up the pieces when the world is still going to shit. There was so much hopium on this site at the time, it felt (and still feels) like a hopeful place populated by kind and extremely smart people here kept me inspired that the world can be helped.

Anyone else here have a literal break from reality during their great awakening? Think I'm a whimp?