Aw I'm sorry to hear u have been through so much and haven't truly felt complete with God. question for u if u don't mind...
- what is your prayer life like
If I had to recommend a starting point I would for sure choose new testament and I would start with John. It helps us understand Jesus in a deeper way which helps unlock many other things through out the bible. U sound like u have a good heart and are truly seeking. Keep at it. Don't lose faith. Jesus loves u more than u can ever know. I love u as well. Feel free to reach out whenever and share any and all things u might need to get off your chest
Aw I'm sorry to hear u have been through so much and haven't truly felt complete with God. question for u if u don't mind...
- what is your prayer life like
If I had to recommend a starting point I would for sure choose new testament and I would start with John. It helps us understand Jesus in a deeper way which helps unlock many other things through out the bible. U sound like u have a good heart and are truly seeking. Keep at it. Don't lose faith. Jesus loves u more than u can ever know. I love u as well. Feel free to reach out whenever and share any and all things u might need to get off your chest