^^ This - "not only was working in that role a life long dream, but the impact from being let go from that role and the fact that it was based on my religious, civil rights as well as body antimony, has rocked the foundation of my being. It continues to impact every aspect of my life since then."

Now (actually past due) is a great time to grab some sessions with a counselor / shrink. ;-) You have zero to lose and everything to gain. Note that when you get real serious with them, discovery can be a two way street. Be careful what you "document" in emails.

^^ This - "not only was working in that role a life long dream, but the impact from being let go from that role and the fact that it was based on my religious, civil rights as well as body antimony, has rocked the foundation of my being. It continues to impact every aspect of my life since then."