Look...I think you're feeling 100 times worse because of all the stress and may have high blood pressure or whatever. Learn to meditate.. seriously. Calm down, learn this and try to calm yourself and feel the peace in your heart. You must not kill yourself.. that's eternity in Hell far worse than what you've living with right now.
“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” -- Philippians 4:6-7
The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. - Exodus 14:14
"Add on top if it I have my mother who is a complete narcissist texting me and telling me how hurt she is that I only come visit a few times a month and how wrong that is of me and how I should be over there at least a few times per week. And how she never feels good - then I suggest some things - then those things aren't good enough - it's just non freaking stop. Then telling me that she's going to die soon and why am I not doing more for her."
My mother in law is just like that and my husband, being the younger one, always obey and gives in to her so all weekend (Happy Memorial!) I have to hear her calling him 8-10 times a day complaining. After every phonecall my husband wants to scream, I'm afraid he has high blood pressure, and we pray together that she'll change?
Look...I think you're feeling 100 times worse because of all the stress and may have high blood pressure or whatever. Learn to meditate.. seriously. Calm down, learn this and try to calm yourself and feel the peace in your heart. You must not kill yourself.. that's eternity in Hell far worse than what you've living with right now.
“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” -- Philippians 4:6-7
The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. - Exodus 14:14