I’m just now interested in Christ but I still don’t feel 100% confident in them-but I feel that’s normal. Looking around it’s hard to believe a loving and caring god would let this planet get to this point.

This is not unusual for our time and place. You can read about the crisis of the Christian church back in the 4th century when Rome was being sacked and the whole world as they knew it was going to pot. Augustine wrote a book called "City of God" that meditates on the intentions of God and his spiritual kingdom that does not depend on the rise and fall of any particular society, nation-state, or empire.

Also, consider the faith of Abraham as described in the book of Hebrews; even though Abraham had a great many promises made by God directly to him, and God swore an oath by His own existence and character that they would be true, all seemed to be contradicted by Abraham's wandering, pilgrim existence. He had no land to call his own, no heir while he had an old and barren wife who was also doubting, and even his own sin and foolishness threatened the fulfillment of God's promises. The NT author to Hebrews says Abraham endured because he did not live by what his eyes saw, he lived by seeking "a better country"; the heavenly realm itself, not just a piece of real estate later called Israel. The earthly blessings were just a preliminary level of what was promised, they paled in comparison to the knowledge that God was preparing a heavenly kingdom and a spiritual seed to conquer all enemies including death itself. That's why Abraham was able to carry through his call to sacrifice his only son Isaac. He knew God would give Isaac back to him somehow to confirm God's promise (faith in a resurrection, i.e. life coming out of death). It's a truly amazing program of divine grace and power that we are called to hinge our faith on.

I’m just now interested in Christ but I still don’t feel 100% confident in them-but I feel that’s normal. Looking around it’s hard to believe a loving and caring god would let this planet get to this point.

This is not unusual for our time and place. You can read about the crisis of the Christian church back in the 4th century when Rome was being sacked and the whole world as they knew it was going to pot. Augustine wrote a book called "City of God" that meditates on the intentions of God and his spiritual kingdom that does not depend on the rise and fall of any particular society, nation-state, or empire.

The faith of Abraham as described in the book of Hebrews is one where even though Abraham had a great many promises made by God directly to him, and God swore an oath by His own existence and character that they would be true, all seemed to be contradicted by Abraham's pilgrim nomadic existence. No land to call his own, no heir with an old and barren wife, and even his own sin and foolishness threatening the fulfillment of those promise. The NT author to Hebrews says Abraham endured because he did not live by his eyes, he lived by faith in seeking "a better country", that is the heavenly realm itself, not just the piece of real estate later called Israel. The earthly blessings were just a preliminary level of what was promised, they paled in comparison to the knowledge that God was preparing a heavenly kingdom and a spiritual seed to conquer all enemies including death itself. That's why Abraham was able to carry through his call to sacrifice his only son Isaac. He knew God would give Isaac back to him somehow to confirm God's promise (faith in a resurrection, i.e. life coming out of death). It's a truly amazing program of divine grace and power that we are called to hinge our faith on.

I’m just now interested in Christ but I still don’t feel 100% confident in them-but I feel that’s normal. Looking around it’s hard to believe a loving and caring god would let this planet get to this point.

This is not unusual for our time and place. You can read about the crisis of the Christian church back in the 4th century when Rome was being sacked and the whole world as they knew it was going to pot. Augustine wrote a book called "City of God" that meditates on the intentions of God and his spiritual kingdom that does not depend on the rise and fall of any particular society, nation-state, or empire.

The faith of Abraham as described in the book of Hebrews is one where even though Abraham had a great many promises made by God directly to him, and God swore an oath by His own existence and character that they would be true, all seemed to be contradicted by Abraham's pilgrim nomadic existence. No land to call his own, no heir with an old and barren wife, and even his own sin and foolishness threatening the fulfillment of those promise. The NT author to Hebrews says Abraham endured because he did not live by his eyes, he lived by faith in seeking "a better country", that is the heavenly realm itself, not just the piece of real estate later called Israel.