Hard to explain! I'm thinking it's a personal matter on my end, some anxiety related to some thorns in my side. But I felt like this prior to a big tsunami in 2004, only time it connected to a big world event.

I'm also finding myself fully awake at the witching hour with an urgency to pray for infants, no idea where, why.... but there is a lot of pain associated with the urgency, like the infants are in pain and I'm asking the Lord to relieve their pain.

Any of this resonate?

I'm Jewish with a long tradition of oral history going back to the Romania/Ukrainian areas. One thing passed down from my great grandmother is distrust of the Jesuits. She connected them as the central nexus of organized human suffering, and that they use the greed of others as a cover.

There is oral tradition in my family, that Rome wants the world hating Jews because it's a cover to help bring more abominations into the Jewish faith. The messianic Jews in my family believe that Rome's purpose is to hide from humanity's perception, that remission from sin through the Christ Jesus is "the way."