I will definitely do that fren. I truly hope you are right and am trying to keep what little faith I’ve struggled with. I WANT to believe again and FEEL Him, I know I just have so much work to do. But I’ve sworn that if she’s ok I will open up my heart to TRYING again, and maybe that’s all I need, to just try, and have faith- unfortunately easier said than done for me. Thank you for your time, kindness, and encouragement sister.
All of you frens have given me more strength than you realize. I did, I prayed with everything I have and by the end, that’s all it was: help, help, help. I have a sense of calm slowly coming over me but don’t know if that’s just bc I’m cried out and emotions are fried, but I’m going to meditate on it and pray more until I hear more news. Thank you fren, from the bottom of my heart.
I just kneeled by my bed and PRAYED. That’s something I haven’t done in over 20yrs when I walked away from the church, I’ve always tried to be Good and walk a righteous path, but I know I’ve strayed and stumbled- this is the first time in a very long time that I’ve acknowledged the presence that never left me- idk if it will be heard or listened to, but i Prayed and apologized with all I am and hope against hope she’ll be ok and that my sins won’t be a hindrance.
Thank you fren, I actually did just that bc I didn’t know what else to do: laundry, toys, dishes and trash, idk why but it did seem to help, if only to take my mind away for a moment. They just did a CT scan to check for an embolism after a recent procedure she had. Just waiting now. Thank you for your time and kind support.
Thank you so much. I truly appreciate your kind prayers and support
I honestly don’t know if I DO have it in me, but all three of us fight like hell so I’m not counting us out…just scared like I’ve never been and never felt the extra fear from having to put on a strong face while he WATCHES. The stakes are so much higher than they used to be, I’m trying to keep faith and you frens are tremendous. I truly love and appreciate you all for taking the time to comfort some random pede in this hour of need. Bless you fren.
Yea, first time for anything like this.she’s had attacks before but Idk, I’ve never seen the motor trouble that she showed, literally fell over and was slurring some speech. I hope that’s all it is with some dehydration. Scary as hell being so helpless though
I truly hope you are right. THANK you for the time and support you’ve given me, I don’t even feel worthy of that but I sincerely thank you fren.
Agony is the word fren. This is terrifying. Im begging with everything in me and praying she’ll be ok. The support from brothers and sisters like you is almost overwhelming. I’ve dropped down and prayed for the first time in over 20yrs, PRAYED with everything I have. I’ve strayed from the organized religion I was raised under but in my heart of hearts I’ve always tried to be good and just—if He can hear and see me He must know my love for her and for what is right….our son needs her, I need her, and this world seems to need every good and decent person we can find. Im scared bc I feel I’m at a precipice: I will open up my heart to Him again if she is safe…or I fear my darkness will overtake me. I don’t say that lightly…I just don’t know how I’d move forward. Thank you for your time and support fren, sorry to vent.
I hope you’re right. I swear I’ll turn my soul around and open my heart to Him, I just want her to be ok. I’ve been so confused, angry, lost and bitter for so long, but the one constant that has kept me grounded in goodness, for the sake of goodness, has been HER. Our family is everything to me, and im not strong enough to carry on in this bullshit without her.
I’ve been on my knees praying and begging for 30min. I just put as much energy as I could into those words. I know I’ve strayed so very far, but in my heart of hearts I try to be good. I just hope He sees and knows and that she has help, idc about me, I just want her to be ok and my son to have his beautiful mother. With everything I have: please Lord, have mercy and help her!
Neighbor took her, trying to get her mother to come down and watch our son so I can go to hosp. I’m trying, just probably or doing a very good job
I thank you from the bottom of my heart brother. I’m crying and scared and don’t know what to do. So helpless, trying not to be hopeless.
I’m trying to e believe this fren, I’m just struggling so much. I know I’ve strayed too far and am terrified something will happen to her and that I’m not GOOD enough to deserve His help.
Thank you so much fren. I’m trying. I’ve strayed so far over the years, I’m trying to keep the faith but the constant barrage of shit we’ve had has pushed us to our limit. I know it is precisely times like THESE that we need HIM the most, I’m just such a struggling sinner that I don’t feel worthy of his help, which terrifies me even more…
Thank you fren. I appreciate you
Excelsior indeed fren. Thank you, this means more to me than you’d think.
Trying to brother, tough with no one close to help. Thank you!
I hope so, idk what I’d do otherwise…
I’m trying, just feel like a dick bc we both lashed out at eachother in our fear before she left and I’m terrified that if something happens. Trying to get the closest family member to come watch our son so I can go to hosp. You’re encouragement is appreciated
That’s what I’m hoping, she’s had panic/anxiety attacks before but I’ve never seen her like this. Both of us were scared as hell. I’m trying to stay positive but my brain always goes to worst case scenario and I’m freaking the F out.
Thank you fren. I’m trying to stay positive and keep faith, your support is greatly appreciated.
Thank you fren. It is greatly appreciated
Thank you so much fren! Idk what’s happening and am trying to keep it all together. Just put my son to bed and trying to figure out coverage for him so I can go up to the hospital. We just do t have close family or any friends so it’s difficult. This support from all of you brother and sisters always catches me off guard. I love and appreciate you all!
Thank you Brother. That is reassuring. I keep trying to focus on our boy and know that’s why I won’t ever give up—-it’s just scary as hell, as I’m sure you know. It’s just all so much more daunting now. Thank you for your strength and encouragement fren- and I wish all the best to you and yours! You have helped me and I can only hope I can help you or someone else when they need it. Bless you