Gary you have a prayer from me as well.
No need to be sorry. I really enjoyed reading what you shared and it put a smile on my face. I agree that whatever comes is God's plan. Obviously I hope for a better tomorrow as well but no matter what, he sits on the throne.
No matter who you are, what you think, what you believe, what you look like, find him. If he's pulling at your heart find a bible and read the book of John. You can PM as well if you want.
This is the best post I've seen today :)